Lately now I've been feeling really out place and lost in life, I always feel empty on the inside like water being poured into a glass with no bottom you know? and days I am happy but most of time its like why am I even living. I mean I have plenty very good friends and also a girlfriend it just feels like I'm out of place when I'm with them as if I'm just blended in background and they all seem to connect and stuff. I never really tell my true feeling about
how I feel right now to them because like they know me as this goofy, kind, noble, and trustworthy individual. I try my best to help them when they need me like whether it was a death of family or relationship issues or even if they feel the same way how I do right now lost I try get them through it but I feel like if I tried to say how I am currently its like they hear me but aren't listening so I just let it be and play it off with a smile and joking around even though i'm hurting on the inside.
I have talked to one of my gf's best friends about
how I am feeling it kind of helped but not much cause she tells me to just let go and be happy but its not that easy for me.. I always feel insecure that my friends don't care and are just gonna leave me behind alone in the dark with no possible chance of light.
I have also talked to my college counselor once about
me feeling "trapped" and talking to him helped and I was somewhat happy until I sunk into sadness not to soon after. :'(
and I have tried the hobbies like video games, photgraphy but doesn't help that much. I also skateboard and that sometimes makes me forget about
my problems but that's only for a short while. and I tried to cope by but it only makes me tried and sad.. :(
Help?
I'm a freshman in College 18yrs old.
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