Can't stop my eyes leaking...

Hello,

I've posted a few times here so some know me. I just need to vent. I am having the worst day in a very long time. I'm at work, back for 9 months so far since being off for 2 years. My life is going very well, I have a new lady, a new place and my career is on track. But I just can't stop crying today.

My Dad is 86 and not in good health - I would venture he has maybe 10 years left. I haven't seen my eldest son (21 now) in over a year and then he told me to stay the **** out of his life. I miss him so much and as far as I know he's living on the streets.

I just miss them both so so much. My Dad lives 2000km away. I know my recent lack of sleep is not helping matters but knowing doesn't help stop it. My colitis is flaring badly as well so I feel like a crappy mess. I just need to tell SOMEONE.

It's always amazed me how so very alone we can feel in a world so hugely populated. Like a speck of dust floating aimlessly through the galaxy. Isolated, separated, minimized, pointless, fruitless, insignificant and unseen.

I am desperate for a hug.....from my son.

This day will end and another, brighter day full of new promise and possibilities will come tomorrow.

I CAN make it today. Tomorrow will come no matter what today brings. Thanks for listening (reading?). This site is a treasure.

B

Thanks Karen,

nice to hear from another Fibromite. Well my workday is nearly done and I am feeling better. Just one of those days when everything flares at once and the mind wanders over old territory.

I've made plans for comfort food and a warm soak when I get home, followed by a good long sleep.

You are so right about new things - I have a new partner, a new home and soon, a new workplace. Thinking of how good my life has become got me through today and tomorrow I start anew.

Thanks for commenting Karen - that means an awful lot. : )

Brian

Karen,

I haven't been on there much but I should - I found the most amazing book at a local thrift store. The precise title escapes me just now but something like;

Fibromyalgia and Myofascial (Disorder?)

Anyhow, a heck of an eye opener. I'll post the title in Fibro next chance I get.

Brian