I'm just going to write......so today i'm feeling not down but again fighting with myself!!! so in my post previously I dont think I mentioned that my house where I used to live sometimes feels like a burden to me sometimes, I get a weird uncomfortable feeling there Never really sleep when I was there...Now part of me feeling better, and where I'm seeing improvement in myself was moving out and away from my family which sometimes they can be overwhelming. This issue is I will be moving back home by this friday and I'm terrified of going back to rock bottom (where I was living when my episodes started)...it's bitter sweet but right now since i'm not working this is what I can afford, better schools in this area for my daughter...I always tell myself dont worry about
them just try to keep to yourself...but they always seem to find me, or I feel as though there talking about
(they prob are)...they down play my depression(like whatever). I dont want to be rude....but being by myself sometimes helps me to keep a piece of mind...Did I mention my mom suffer with depression...she lives there too! I try to talk to her...but sometimes it's difficult, I look for my mom to give me advice, tell me what to do that will help (i'm breaking down now...hate talking about
her situation) its pretty much the child raising the parent...and It hurt because even tho I express what i'm going thru with her....its like she doesnt understand no does...no compassion, therefore I try to stay strong they dont support me and what i'm doing....I know i'm rambling but just writing my thoughts...