Weekends tend to be difficult for me. That's the time that my ex and I would try to spend time together. I would look forward to it. So now there is nothing, not even a call or text. Which for the most part I get every day. Until the weekends. Dr says I need to stop the contact. Who is gaining from it? It sure isn't me. So, since Wednesday I allow myself one call per day. This weekend has been particularly tough. With me on the bed all day Saturday and most of the day today. I did increase my medicine to 40mg so hopefully it will kick in. The 20mg was working but then I hit a wall and went back to a very low point. How have I allowed someone else to make me feel like this? They have moved on and I'm stuck.
