Posted 10/23/2011 3:01 AM (GMT 0)
Ummmmm hi I guess, this is the first time I've done anything like this so I'm not really sure where to start....
I've had a few issues I suppose, which I could handle individually... or atleast I'd like to think I could... But then again...
It started around a year ago when I was living with a partner and things went downhill pretty quickly and ended in a really dark place, after a few months of incidents becoming more frequent I started talking to a friend and he helped me get out of the situation and get into a slightly better place. But I couldn't quite shake the experience. After that things got better, I got engaged to an old friend and things were okay for a while, good even. But over the last few months I've been under pressure from work and university, I'm trying my best to get everything done and done well but I'm just so tired all the time. But at the same time I cant sleep properly without tablets and I cant stay awake without pounding energy drinks and I guess I'm just a bit lost in it all. I tried talking to my partner and family but everyone is wrapped up in their own problems and I don't want to add to them. I thought I was coping okay but it hit me really hard 2 days ago for no good reason at all that I'm just completely lost and I'm not sure what to do or where to go from here, all I know is that I need some help, but I've moved away from the village I used to live in and I don't know where to find help here. I was diagnosed with depression a couple of years ago but I went to see someone and I was okay for a long time. I just feel like I've slipped back into the same way of thinking and patterns and just gloom of where I used to be, but I really don't think I can handle it a second time round.