Posted 11/8/2011 5:59 PM (GMT 0)
My parents just visited me (we live 2800 miles away from each other) for ten days. Yesterday, I was really frustrated with them and I thought I was ready for them to leave, but after I took them to the airport I lost it. I cried last night and now I can't get out of bed. I just keep thinking that I should have been nicer, that I should have made more of our time together. I feel like such an ungrateful daughter. They moved me into my new apartment, and not only helped me set it up but added things to it. We went to the second-hand stores several times, my dad built me a couple simple pieces, we put together a chest of drawers... and my mom was instrumental in moving out of my old apartment. I couldn't have done this without my parents. I am really depressed. I don't want to live here forever, and ... I don't know. I just am freaking out that in six months or whenever I move out of here I'll be on my own. I'll have all this cool stuff, but I won't be able to bring it back to New York with me.
I know having your parents is supposed to be stressful, but I just feel bad. They were so nice to me, and I feel like I was just not present.
Crying uncontrollably. Can't motivate. Resisting calling parents. I am so lame.