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Posted 11/17/2011 6:24 AM (GMT 0)
Me again. Its 12:16 am and I really need to go to bed but.....here I am. Have to take M-I-L tomorrow for a Barium Swallow test to see why she chokes so much. She did say that she has had her esophagus stretched before which was news to me. Went for an ultrasound of her belly to find out why she has such pain but it didn't show anything so we are off to a CT scan on Friday. Other half was sick Sunday and Monday. Still isn't feeling well but went to work anyway. Everyone gets their needs met but me. I cook and clean, nurse and coddle but who exactly takes care of me???? Heaven help them all if I should get sick. I try to ignore all my aches and pains because in the large scheme of things they are minor. I try to ignore my not so nice thoughts as they don't get me anywhere. I talk to the dog and cats when no one is around but they aren't much help. I took a walk to the mailbox the other day and M-I-L said "don't forget to come back". Ha! Guess she was reading my mind. It is so tempting but my sense of duty outweighs the alternative. No questions tonight, no need for answers, just a need to connect with someone.....anyone......is anyone out there???????
Posted 11/17/2011 6:44 AM (GMT 0)
Hi idyblu

Maybe we could run away together!!!! I spent the afternoon looking at casitas to rent on the mexican riviera-lol...we can't afford to go but a girl can dream

Women always hold the world together it seems...i am having a very bad spell but when therapist going to hospital for a few days, I said: Nooo, they will get mad cause I'm not there to hold it all together...I come home toa relamess when I'm in and husband visits and stresses me out.

I woulf love to hit that mailbox and keep going to idyblu...you're not alone or selfish for having those thoughts. It is hard to get better when others' needs keep intruding.

Hang in there
Maggie
Posted 11/17/2011 7:19 AM (GMT 0)
yeah, hang in there!!!!!!!!!!! jamie.
Posted 11/17/2011 9:27 AM (GMT 0)
hang in there...Idyblu...I hope things get better for you.....I will keep you in my prayers.

Take Care, Amy

Post Edited (sos007) : 11/17/2011 2:31:13 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 11/17/2011 2:04 PM (GMT 0)
I got a real kick when you said MIL said make sure to come back. LOL... That was cute.

It does take women to hold things together. Take pride in that. You are a good woman. I can tell. Even though we need a break too. I don't do so much anymore. Just me, my husband and one dog. But I do know I matter. And that makes me feel good.

You matter a lot more than you think you do. Keep being strong. It will pay off. Ten fold...

Hugs, Karen
Posted 11/17/2011 4:01 PM (GMT 0)
I agree...there are so many times that I feel like the huge "giver" and everyone else takes. Trying to pull it together all the time certainly takes it's toll. I am right there with you and just wanted to send some cyber hugs!
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