which to do?

which ever feels right. i usually do both. feel better soon, with healing compassion, jamie.

Im just so frustrated right now and confused. I wish I could do partial hospitalization for the evening times. Its gotten crazy here and would rather avoid it all! I do miss the art therapy they had every day - Mindlessly doing something constructive without criticism from anyone...
Im not sure my medication is doing its job. ive had several bad anxiety attacks this past week. but with things going crazy at home and changing at work and this also starting classes again Im not surprised. The frustrating part is knowing whats causing them. I had one at work last week and felt like I was going to pass out, freaked my supervisor out lol, but couldnt put my finger on what caused it. It was just like 'bam! here i am to wreck the daaay!'
I feel like I havnt slept because of all the dreams. I can control many of them and have woken up many times during them through out the nights. It feels like theres so much going through my head I cant control it anymore.

I have tried not to take the hydroxyzine because it makes me sleepy but he won't increase meds until I reach the max amount allowed daily for the hydroxyzine. Todays the first day I gave in and started taking it. Im not asleep yet so that's a good thing lol. I have a therapy appt tomorrow so hopefully that will help some. School has added stress for the past two weeks so adjusting to that will take time. Public Speaking is one of the two classes Im taking.. I wish a diagnosis of social phobia could get me out of having to take it!!! lol

i too wish you the very best, hang in there. things will get better, with much healing compassion, jamie.