Very frustrated

Hi

I'm feeling really frustrated and depressed. I'm also very exhausted. Not sure how much more I can handle. Can't focus in work. Not getting much rest or sleep and feeling weak physically and emotionally. On the verge of breaking down.

Been trying to cope with with of things lately. Having a lot of neck and back pains. My father got his 4th heart attack on Tuesday. My mother had an outburst last night. She came into my room and started quarreling for no reason and she told me I'm killing him (my father). Why would someone tell you something like this?

I feel really hopeless and sad. I'm a bit confused as well. Feel like giving up on everything including life.

UA,
keep posting here for any outlet we care.
Your Mom did not mean what she said, most likely she won't remember all the words she was yelling. She was venting to the closest target, safest most likely.

We all do this when we are hurting to the point of bursting and don't have control. A 4th heart attack is hard for a family to handle. Karen is right, you need to give yourself and break and be gentle with yourself. Use your logical mind and use reasoning questions to calm down.

Neck and back pains sound like tension and stress unless you've had any injuries. A hot shower may help, stretching, meditating too. Take care of you, so you can be there for your Mom when she is ready to open up for you.

Stay strong and know that you could not have caused a medical illness, people are not that powerful.

Keep posting we do care.

Thanks everyone.

Still not feeling like me again. She started talking nice to me but I just can't get the words out of my head. I know we all say things we don't mean when we are angry but why such harsh words. This makes me feel to move out. It's not the first time she lashed out but never so bad before. I'm frustrated but I'm not lashing out on her.
Sorry for venting...

Just feeling really frustrated and hopeless. I got a little rest so not feeling too weak, just mostly depressed.
When you think things are getting better, it just gets worst.

I've for my appointment with my therapist today. Hopefully this will help me...

Hi Karen and everyone,

Thanks everyone for all your support.

Appointment with therapist yesterday was okay. We went on for longer than we usually do. Karen, I'll send you an e-mail soon. We did some art therapy so I'm feeling a little relaxed now and not so much frustrated. Just a bit sad and depressed.

Had doctor's appointment who needs to to start back PT. Feeling a little stressed but guess I just need to figure out things.

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with much healing compassion,

jamie.

keep strong.

You sound better UA! Take life one hour at a time if you have too.

Work can be overwhelming with deadlines and all, try making your goals short as possible and focusing on projects as small as possible, makes the days go faster.

Stay with that therapist and let him/her know any time you are having very bad thoughts. Try journaling, releases alot of the emotions pentup all day long. Consider sharing parts of the journal during sessions. Works well for me.

Trina

So happy to hear that you feel better hon. Keep up the fantastic work. Hope to hear more from you soon.

Have a great day...

Hugs, Karen