time for medication?

Hi all,
As with everyone else here, life has really been horrible lately...and the other day I actually felt as tho not being around anymore would be a better answer for my family. I just feel like the stress has gotten to that point..and I am not sure if this will pass, or if it really is time for medication. I hate to take meds for every thing, but I kind of feel that I am at that point.

I am out of work on disability, in January I had to have major surgery and am still not really recovering from it as well as I should be. Our 10 year old has had to have several surgeries this year.. (5 due to kidney stones, some so big they have worn holes in urether),
I am having issues with my 20 year old son who is getting married ( his fiancee does not like me and will not let my son talk to anyone in our family..and even tho we have our 10 year old, HE is my BABY...any mom will know what I mean), I have recurring sinus infections.
one of our 23 year olds had to move home with her 4 year old son due to recent divorce, the other 23 year old has 2 children and a great marriage, but just graduated from nursing school and her husband just lost his job, so now they want to move home temporarily...
my mother informed me the other day that I sucked as a parent and put my step children ahead of my own and allowed my husband to treat my children badly ( which I find amusing since my husband's family makes the same claims.)
and I had to trade my car in in December, so I decided to get another truck so I could haul our camper because my husband's truck was having issues, and since I had seen a dtr. prior to getting my loan, the disability insurance I had would not cover anything when I had to go out for my surgery thusly putting me behind 6 car payments (at $450 a piece) when I finally got back to work.
And since I do home health care with a young man who is missing most of his skin...I can't go back to work as we are just passing infections back and forth ( can't wear gloves to work with him because they will stick to raw spots)...
And the stress just continues...
I can't sleep, appetite sucks ( but to be fair, it has been gone since my surgery anyway)...and on top of all of this FUN stuff, (hahahaha) I found out that I have a goiter on my thyroid. Not a big deal right? WRONG, 2 women in our family died from them as they grew INTO their throats, ( basically cutting off their airways) and not out as they do for most people...
So, enough for meds?
Sorry...just a bit stressed..thanks for any ideas..

Dear Bugszy

You do have a platterful, that is for sure.

If you don't want to got to the doctor for medication, [which at this point I think might be a good idea, depression is an illness and should not be ignored]then I strongly suggest you look into meditation and mindfulness to calm and center yourself among the chaos. Mindfulness.org is a good place to start.

Obviously, you have to ignore what people tell you about how you are running you life. You could response with People in glass houses shouldn't throw stones or first one without sin throw the first rock. It wouldn't do much good. You have to focus on you so you can be strong for your 10 yr old.

It sounds like you are on a downward spiral and need to put the brakes on. You can not help anyone if you are a mess. Take care of you first. Educate yourself on depression; focusing on the positives and centering your life on you and yours.

Stay Strong and don't let them overwhelm you.

I strongly suggest you see the doctor as soon as possible for the depression.

Stay Strong

Trina

Mrs. B,

If you have an episode that is becoming harmful to you or someone else, you can always go the the ER before it gets out of hand.

When you go while you "know" what is still going on, you have control over the situation and can get a short script until you see the doc at the clinic.
Just in case. Keep this in mind so you do not hit "crisis" level .

Another thing you can try is reserching mindfulness; focusing and meditation- all 3 are great for keeping you calm and on track with your life.

Keep posting here and let us know how you are doing. We are here for support and we do care.

Stay Strong.

Trina