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Posted 10/25/2012 3:48 AM (GMT 0)
Hi so I just joined and thought I'd come talk. I've never been diagnosed with depression or anxiety but I know I have it. I have been struggling with anxiety my whole life and depression since I was about 14 and I'm 22 now. I haven't been feeling too good lately, my depression has come on again and I've been struggling with . I've tried really hard not to do it because my boyfriend knows about it and he gets mad at me and he blames himself when I do it. It's not his fault I just get in these moods where I want to cut myself, I can feel it in my arms (if that makes any sense). I do but I don't want to get better it's strange. I'm just hoping I can find someone to talk who understands what I'm going through. Thanks for listening to me ramble on...

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 10/25/2012 4:18:08 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 10/25/2012 4:26 AM (GMT 0)
Welcome Britnystarr, I am so sorry that you have so much anxiety that you have to  yourself. I dont. I hated how they looked. I hated it when my family members would say: Stop it Cathy, why do you do that? My answer was: I cant help it. This made no difference,and heaven help us that anyone would sit down EVER and try to be interested WHY I felt the need to do that. Anyway, I did it, it hurt like hell, and I did manage, on my own, to stop it. I do use only my pinky fingers to pick at. Of course all bug bites, I had to scratch to make a scab, then I could have that to pick on forever unless I just make myself stop it. IT is so hard Britny. Again, I am so sorry dear that you abuse yourself. I will always be around to read your posts. I am on here at least 2 to 3 times a day. I have a whole bucket full of problems so you will see me on Depression board, along with: Anxiety and panic, bipolar, diabetes, fibromyalgia, chronic pain, chronic fatigue. You might also post on the Anxiety board. You are so welcome and there are some great folks on here who will want to help if they can......have your boyfriend on the forum with you, he will learn a lot......hugs...Cathy

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 10/25/2012 4:19:51 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 10/25/2012 4:35 AM (GMT 0)
My boyfriend deals w/ depression and he was a cutter. I would blame myself too. I can understand how your boyfriend feels in blaming himself. Neuropathy10 makes a good point in having him come here or just in general reading up on cutting. I didnt understand and still cant quite comprehend it but doing some research did help me come to terms with some of the reasons as to why. It really helped me feel more compassionate towards him. Maybe it would help your boyfriend as well. Support is everything when it comes to being w/ someone.
Posted 10/25/2012 5:58 AM (GMT 0)
Well, my husband is not as supportive as he might be. He finds it a bother in fact. He does however take an antidepressant. Our 9th anniversary is in November. We are still finding out things about each other. I remind myself that he is a 65 year old "ole phart". I have to deal with much more from him than he does me. I work at making life at home easy. He works very hard and I want to make him a very nice relaxed home. With my physical problems I dont do grocery shopping, he does it all. I am lucky in that way. I suggest that you and your boy friend make it a point to let each other know how u are feeling when you are wanting to .  You are not responsible for his anxiety nor is he responsible for yours. Just getting mad at each other for some other reason now and then is totally going to happen, but dont let it lead to each of you trying to bring your anxiety into it, making it the topic of anger...........Well, I have got to get to bed. I look forward to chatting again.....hugs....Cathy

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 10/25/2012 4:23:12 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 10/25/2012 10:22 AM (GMT 0)
Please remember that we cant discuss self harm here. I am glad you are supporting eachother though. If you feel a need to discuss it, maybe though email you all can do that. I had to edit per rules. I am sorry, but I have to follow administation rules.

Please keep supporting eachother.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 10/25/2012 2:28 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Karen, thanks for editing. I never want to put anything on posts that are harmful. I knew when i read Britnys post that I had to welcome her and let her know I understand her problems. I am so happy to be of some help to anyone. I have not been needed in so long by anyone. My goal to start visiting nursing home close to my house has not come to pass. I am going to change that tho. Now I will be in a wheelchair too, along with residents at Nursing home. Until later......Cathy
Posted 10/25/2012 3:31 PM (GMT 0)
Cathy,

Thanks for understanding. I know it is an important problem, but I have to enforce rules. But I hope everybody knows if they ever need to talk about it, they can email me. I check it frequently.

It does feel good to help people, doesn't it? And to feel needed.

I am sorry that you are going to be in a wheelchair. Is this due to your health issues? I imagine it would be, stupid question I asked...

Keep posting. You are needed here. Many members need some good advice and understanding in a nonjudgemental way. You are a good person...

Hugs, Karen
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