I hope I wasn't forgotten

Hi all~

sorry I haven't posted but things in my life have been rough.  There are so many things I want to say here but I know I can't.  My depression has eaten me alive and I seem like I am here but noone sees me.

I feel so lonely and without purpose that I don't know what I am doing here.

I have been totally alienated from my family down south and I miss my sister that passed 4 years ago.  With the holidays coming, my depression has gotten to the point where I am now having really bad anxiety attacks and sometimes low-grade panic-attacks.

I have also been told by people around me that they see such a big change in my cognitive abilities that scare them and they want me to see my neuro doc.  I owe them money so they won't see me.

Thanks for being my friends.

Hi F4U
Of course I remember you-you have had a very difficult journey. I. too have just posted after 2 month absence. My depression was so bad I was completely mentally paralyzed, incapable of the smallest task.

I can empathize with you and can only say that you will be in my prayers for continued strength to do battle. I have been forcing myself to do things (time in the sunlight, a load of laundry, a procrastinated phone call) Eventually you do not feel so invisible and empty. Perhaps a trip to a new neuro doc is in order. The old doc has to give you your records whether you owe or not. Just a thought.

Are you able to get in touch w/ family? Or is it toxic?

Please keep us posted-I already feel better coming here and sharing

God bless
Mags

Dear Faithfully,

Im newbie in this kind of forum. I am depressed since last year, and yes no one care for me either. Im married but now my husband decided to divorce me. I dont know where you live but if you are near definitely Ill come to see you and talk to you. But where are you, you havent replied any of the msgs

R