Well, didn't have anything major 2 post but i am very depressed. My bipolar + Bordeline Personality Disorder is so hightened right now and i don't know how 2 get a handle on it. i saw my psych today and she did add another medication for sleep as i told her i used my spouses for the past 2 nites and was able 2 finally sleep. Pleez know i do not recommend this at all. She was very proud of me for being completely honest with her. i find myself just sitting in my room doing absolutely nothing, no energy to read even. Just racing thoughts about
my family situation. i have been married 24 + years and we have 7 kids, 14, 16, 18, 20, 21, 23, 26. One of them has been estranged for 10 months now and we had raised her son for the first 4 years. Then she moved in with a boyfriend (not the father of our grandson), and he does not care for any of the family. So it has caused me so much distress. i just got a tattoo with my grandson's name on me Friday so that he will always be with me. Tho it doesn't replace the loss in my heart that i feel for him as well as my daughter. i have reached out with emails that are so vicious i have only been able to read a couple sentences and then my other children have read and told me to not read them. All i do is cry all the time. i have reached out to Nami for the past year and go to Womens Bipolar/Depression group weekly and a Borderline Personality Disorder group. These have been very helpful, but does not replace the heartache. My parents do not believe in depression let alone bipolar or BPD. i feel so alone and sometimes it seems to unbearable to continue the daily fight. Tho i know my other children would be destroyed. i was wondering if anyone else struggles with the loss of a child that has removed themselves from your life as well as parents? How do you heal and move on? Thanx for listening.
Serenity537
Bipolar 2, Borderline Personality Disorder, Anxiety/Depression, Panic, OCD, PTSD, Chronic Pain with 16 past surgeries