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Posted 6/1/2005 8:42 PM (GMT 0)
Hi. I'm a junior in college and spent my entire sophomore year back home because of a major depression and a panic disorder, half way through my year I tried to return to school but left after one panic attack. My parents are the sort that "don't beleive" in depression--as if it's Santa Claus and when you quit pretendending it exists it stops visiting.I'm an adult-- and though they shoulden't,...  these two important people's idea that I should stop my meds seemed for the best-I did so and am ok now ..but I haven't been confronted with real life, I sit on the couch and walk the dog and that is what my day consists of. Summer is here and I would like to try to return to school and to the dreams of a future I abandoned but the anxiety is creeping in and I don't ever want to experience the kind of feelings I had again. My head wants to go back and get my life together-get A LIFE together, but my stomach wants to stay in my safe place and guard myself from pain, I guess I'm looking for some advice as to how to return to the real world optimistically.

-Lacy

Posted 6/1/2005 10:19 PM (GMT 0)
Wow, don't know what to say. I know that when I am really struggling with my depression I look for small and simple goals to accomplish. By taking these baby steps I can eventually look back and say "hey I guess I was moving all along, it just didn't feel like it at the time". Maybe try and take just a class or two now and see how it goes without jumping back in to total imerssion.
Posted 6/1/2005 10:22 PM (GMT 0)
 Hi Lacy, I am BP ( Bipolar) , but every once and awhile look on this forum. I am sorry to hear what you are going through. I have a similar problem as far as my parents " not believing " in Depression or Bipolar. Just my dad. I just had to explain to my mom what BP was and how it effects me. I am in my second year of college, and really believe in following you dreams , while at the same time fighting the awful disoder or depression. I feel like you should see your doctor and get back on your meds. After the adjustment , get enrolled into school. I always talk about my " disorder" or my meds in front of my dad, so he understands that this does affect me on a daily basis. Getting people to believe , no longer matters, getting well does. Good Luck!!! :-)
Posted 6/1/2005 11:09 PM (GMT 0)

Hi Lacy Bug,

It sounds like you are handling your illnesses very well. I think you're very brave and strong to be able to do that in the face of your parents' opposition. I'm in graduate school, and I have found that one thing that helps me a lot is to slow down my pace at school. Like, if you usually take 4 classes, just take 2 or 3. If you are normally involved in several activities, cut down to just one or two. I find that if I force myself to slow down and allow myself extra time to get homework done and just decompress, then things become much more doable. The hard part is convincing yourself that it's ok to slow down (at least for me it is...)

Posted 6/2/2005 12:35 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Lacy,
I have a similar problem to you except it is with my husband. He pretty much says that I control everything and I need to start being more positive. Wow, is that really how to be cured??? :) lol... I agree that you need to start seeing a doctor and/or therapist and try to get on meds. College is a very stressful time in your life not only with the classes, studying, etc. but it is also a transition in your life and you should not feel bad if you need help. I know that you are trying to make your parents happy BUT you are an adult and you need to think about you.
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