Feel like I have something evil in me

The most difficult part of my depression is feeling like I have something evil inside me. Feeling like I am a bad person. I tend to overcompensate by being a submissive subservient person in most of my relationships..but when pushed I have said some really horrible things to people and these things come out of me so impulsively. I have literally had to run away from people I love because I felt this bubbling up inside and I didn't want to wreck the relationship by saying something I would regret.

There are aspects of this evil that are so very dark and I see no way to rid self of it other than....Feel like I need to protect humankind from the monster I have inside.

Feeling hopeless

juliebean

Juliebean,

I agree with Karen.

Also, I think journaling, painting any creative outlet your can think of will do you well.

Emotions need to be released and processed not pent up.

Peace
Trina

Are you feeling any better today, has the black blob shrunk or moved on?

Peace
Trina

Evangelina88,

I am so sorry to hear this. I sure do hope that you feel better soon. Take some time for yourself and just breathe. Picture yourself on a deserted island where you hear the ocean waves and the seagulls. Try to relax and enjoy your life.

Keep posting and know that we all care...

Hugs, Karen