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Posted 2/16/2013 5:09 AM (GMT 0)
I worry and doubt myself to death, and have been doing so since I was a young child. I scare myself so much because I think I'm going to go insane, I feel like I only have a little bit of control. I always find something to obsess over and I worry about it over and over again whether I'm trying to do something or its something I love, I worry and am negative And obsess over the bad. I don't have anyone to talk to.. Not at the moment at least. Not anyone that will listen. I think I have OCD, every OCD symptom and test tells me so. I scored a 26 and 12 was very likely for it. I don't know how good those tests Are but every symptom is something I do. I check things over and over and try to convince myself of everything, truth or not I always worry about it, and the cause is so pointless, I don't have anything to obsess over but I do, it scares me so much.
Posted 2/16/2013 6:42 AM (GMT 0)
I do no have OCD, but I know what its like to obsess and worry. For me, I have to write things down to see exactly how unimportant whatever I am worrying over is. Relaxing has been a constant struggle for me forever. For me I think it all started due to an overbearing and controlling father. However, at this point I am adult and I am learning to turn that voice off and just be. Just take in a deep breath and take it one day at a time. Perhaps get some professional help. There are methods and medications that are made for problems like you are describing. Only a professional can diagnose and treat you correctly.

I have no words of wisdom for you, but I wanted to welcome you and invite you to talk to us about whatever you want. We are here for you.

Jennifer
Posted 2/16/2013 1:02 PM (GMT 0)
Hi IamW,

Welcome to the forum. I think Jennifer gave you some very good advice. Do talk to a professional and work on this problem. You will get better, it just takes time. One day at a time...

Hugs, Karen
Posted 2/16/2013 4:25 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you so much, it feels so nice to know that other people feel the same, I have never had much of a parental figure in life and its nice to talk to someone. I had always just bottled it up which resulted in panic attacks over and over again. I believe your advice is wise, and it makes me feel much better to talk to people who are experienced.
Posted 2/16/2013 4:30 PM (GMT 0)
You are among friends here Iamw... It is nice to know that there are people who understand. I understand about the absence of a parental figure. It is hard, but you can over come that feeling of loss or no direction. What we lack when we don't have an adult supporting us. Keeping things bottled up does tend to surface one way or another. Working with a therapist on this helps.

We can let you know what we went through, but remember, everybody is different and your healing journey is unique to you. You learn, you grow, you experience.

Keep posting. It does help...

Hugs, Karen
Posted 2/16/2013 5:32 PM (GMT 0)
I completely understand how you feel worrying yourself to death.you can't Let your fears control you as hard as it sounds. Take a step to get help. And seeing that others are in this struggle with you really does help. Stay strong! Iwish you the best
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