Julee

you know it's a little strange all this anxiety and depression. Its so hard to explain it to people that don't have to deal with it on a regular basis like we do. my mom is always wishing there was something more she could do to make things easier for me and my husband just doesn't understand completely. Then having to deal with the meds. How do the psych determine which one to try or which one would work better and so forth. I just don't know enough about all this to help my family understand any more than I do. Plus, like today. I'm feeling ok today. things have gone well and I feel a bit more upbeat but whose to say next week or three weeks down the rode I won't have another episode is what I call them. Its not like I'm depressed all the time but the majority of the time I am. that's why I'm continuing my counseling. I think no matter what it'll be very beneficial to me. I'm just nervous about trying new meds is all. I don't like the fact i might have to be on them for a while. I guess only the doctors know, then again they need our help too. I'm currently on zoloft and its not working at all. I'm going to start 100mg of it tomorrow.

Oh I got my appointment with the psych for next tuesday. It was that or wait until the middle of august. I didn't want to wait that long and didn't think my counselor would either. So next tuesday it is. I'm kind of scared about it.

hey all hope everyone is doing well. I'm not doing to good today. My anxiety is really kicking in today for some reason. I have no reason to feel like I have today but I just feel down and sad for some reason. Like I want to go somewhere and hide and just have a good cry. People at work are really irritating me today for some reason and one lady is ranting about guidelines and what not and I try not to get to involved cause I have come to realize that some people just aren't happy unless they are complaining. I'm not one of those people company drama drives me nuts some days. I'm just in an irritated mood and just really intruly feel like being by myself. I hate that. the week started off on a pretty good note and nothing at work has happened that would bring me down or at home. That's just how it goes for me one minute i'm up and the next i'm down. other than that at least I made it to work today so I guess that's a good thing. I do hope everyone is well.

Hugs for you sis!! Let us know how it goes with the counselor tomorrow!

Blessings!

dang; definately was having an anxiety attack on the way to work this morning. I felt it come on last night actually and woke up feeling anxiety. I hate that. I'm going to mention that to my psych doc tuesday. That I tend to wake up with anxiety. Totally had the full blown nausea, feeling hot, and twitchy on the inside and just not feeling right. I car pool into work and I just sat zoning out the window telling myself it's friday you have two days off after this everything is going to be ok. Once I got to work and chilled out for a minute I could feel it slipping away. Then I got chilled and the nausea seems to be gone. I don't know why that happens. Now my hands feel kind of clamy and i can tell i'm coming off of it. At least I can recognize the symptoms now. I just hate waking up feeling like that. I felt great just yesterday was having a good day and everything. I just don't know what brings on those attacks. Luckily it didn't turn into a full blown panic attack like I thought it was going to. I just keep talking to myself in my head telling myself everything was going to be fine and that the weather probably has a lot to do with how I feel this morning. Its real humid out today and its going to be hot which doesn't help me at all. I am glad it's friday though. Hopefully I can sleep in tomorrow morning. I don't feel like I slept peacefully last night. Oh I slept until my alarm went off but I don't like it was restful sleep you know what i mean. anyway happy friday to all.

Hey rosie well right now we've been working on painting our living room and two hallways the last couple of weekends so that helps some on the weekends lately, but that project is nearly done. I enjoy hiking but its so hot right now and humid that its really not good weather to be out hiking. I have thought about taking a water aerobics class. I will have to check on prices and membership cost though. I would love to do something like that. It would be a good way to meet people too. I see my psych doc tomorrow afternoon for the first time and then I see my counselor on wednesday so hopefully I'll know more in a couple of days. My depressive episodes come and go. I haven't felt really really depressed in a couple of weeks now. My anxiety tends to hang around more than my depression does. I'm still going to follow through with this I feel like I need to. I'm worn out today we spent all weekend painting and I'm just plum exhausted today but I made it to work. I do have a lot of nervous energy though I'm one of those that would prefere to be up moving around 90% of my day than sitting all day like I tend to do at work since I sit behind a computer. I had kind of a rough day yesterday though. Its like my brain was moving five times faster than my body was all day long. My husband kept telling me to just slow down and relax cause I kept messing up all day on little stuff. Knocking things over and as I was unloading groceries in the car I dropped one of the bags that had a glass jar of syrup in the bag and it shattered all over the pavement. I was not happy about that. I was like what's wrong with me today. It was really strange. Finally by mid afternoon my husband was like just let me finish up the painting and you go do something else. It was an odd day. I woke up feeling ok but its just I don't know I can't explain it. have a good one.

Angel,

I'm not sure from your message if you ARE increasing the Zoloft, or staying at the same dose. You are right, you need to do SOMETHING different. Glad tomorrow will be a rest day for you!!

Blessings!

greetings all just wanted to tell everyone to have a good weekend. I'm in a very up mood today which is unusal for me but it is friday and it's nice and sunny out so I know that has a lot to do with it. Have a good weekend and get out and do something fun. I intend to do just that. I think next monday I'm going to start walking for a bit of excersise at work. We have a nice big camposs and lots of room just walk around inside through the halls and what not so I might do that for 15 or 20 minutes after I get lunch. Its a thought anyway. Its to hot to try and do any exercising outside.
Have a good weekend everyone.

hope all are doing well. i'm up dressed and on my way into another day. I'm being having a lot of nervous energy this morning. I don't know why. I don't think it's anxiety really just nervous energy. I'm doing ok though for a monday. I had a good weekend and I always hate to see good weekends come to an end. oh well got to get back to the work week sometime huh.

hey all still feeling strangely upbeat these days. I had some anxiety yesterday for some reason. I totally went into that kind of detached feeling at work. It was really weird. I'm doing ok this morning. I just hope this mood continues throughout the day. I never can tell how I'm going to feel from one minute to the next. I'm not one of those that has a constant stabble mood all day long. I might start off in a good mood and by the end of the day could be the complete opposite. anyway just thought i'd say hey. I've done pretty good taking my zoloft. The one thing I have noticed about it the drowsiness really gets me when I'm taking it. I might mention that to my doctor next time I see him. I'm taking it though and that's good for me. I hate taking medicine. Now if I could just get a good routine down with my synthroid I'd be in good shape. Usually when I feel this good is when I start thinking I don't need my medicine and I go off it and it doesn't take long for all the depressive symptoms to come back so even though I'm feeling ok today and feel like all is well I'm going to continue zoloft. Sometimes we're our own worst enemy's at least I am when it comes to stuff like that. I still have to wonder if I'm a little bipolar cause when I have highs like I am right now I'm like everything is fine its going great and it might last a few weeks maybe even a couple of months then bam depressed and said again. I'm hoping that won't happen any time soon. I hate feeling like I did almost two months ago. Gotta keep positive.

good day all. does anyone else find their anxiety is a little bit better when the days are just a little cooler. I feel a little better today. Yesterday the temps got over 100 degrees and my anxiety was through the roof. today I've felt a bit calmer of course its cloudy and a few degrees cooler. I was just wondering if weather effects anyone elses anxiety.

hey all i'm having an ok day. not good or bad just cruisin through the day. I feel a little sad today. I'm not sure why. I just feel sad for some reason. I did sleep pretty good last night although I have noticed that when I get up in the mornings I have aches and pains like I don't totally relax during the night. I wish I could go home and crawl into bed and take a nap. that's what I really feel like doing right now. I had a hard time getting up this morning. My alarm woke me up but I laid there for like 15 minutes before getting up. I didn't feel like getting out of bed today. I did though. We have reviews at work coming up in the next week or so and I'm pretty nervous about that. Last years review didn't go well at all in fact I didn't get a raise last year and if I don't get a raise this year I'll just go nuts. So I've been worrying about that lately. I know my boss has been working on reviews this week so its just a matter of time. Last year she waited until the end of the day to do mine and I was so keyed up and talk about anxiety. I remember being so upset afterwards luckily it was time to go home, but I was so mad and upset I don't even remember the ride home and I have a good 40 minute commute. So of course I'm feeling anxious about that. I just want it to go well. I don't want her to think I don't care about my work cause I do care but if I don't get a raise this year I may have to seriously look into a new job. anyway just needed to talk today. Really feeling a little flighty today like my mind is everywhere else but where it needs to be. I have a lot of days like that. Oh well I know their's no sense worrying about something that hasn't taken place yet and something that I have no controll over but that's what I do best is worry and in my mind I haven't gotten a raise. I always think worse case senerios. so if i do happen to get a raise this year I'll be that more excited about i, but i know if it doesn't happen anyway see what i go through its constant worry and trying to do right but somehow always managing to mess things up in the process. I'm sure we'll know tomorrow or monday when the exact date of doom's day is and I'll keep you posted.

i knew i should've stayed in bed today. all i want to do is go home. its been one thing after another this afternoon and my nerves are just shot. anyway just need to vent its been one of those days that I'm not with it for some reason.