Dear friends, I am at my ropes end. I am overwhelmed and I cannot get done what needs to be done without strong hands and good back. I am seriously thinking about
running away for the weekend. Just let everyone stew in their juices without the person who trys so hard to keep it together....gee, I have more energy than I thought...............I am fore sure not going to give a rats pattuty very soon. I took 2 100mg of elavil a bit ago and am going to hide under the covers.........I am so upset I am shaking inside and need so badley to scream and cry. I made a mistake by signing on to facebook again. I think I am gona unsign again too. I dont understand why so many people are so darn nosy about
every ones life. I dont care if they are painting the hall or added a new photo to their page. And please, dont try to stick your nose in my business.
I have 10 people, immediate family that I feel like I need to be available for if they need me. We send frequent amails, me less than anyone. They know they can depend on me. I can depend on at least 4 of them for support. NONE of them understand how uptight and turned inside out like I am. I dont need or want them to know. The one who lives with me of course my husband, is somewhat available physically. As far as emotionally I best be talking to a brick, or the bed post.
I would LOVE to have a solo vacation in our motorhome. Will take my beloved dog of course. MIght just go set up somewhere close to home, but far away enough to feel alone......I didnt intend to do this. I am going to bed for a mini vacation. I will be back later with you all a hershey candy bar. Regards and TGIF.......Cathy :
