Barely Getting By

It feels like every day, things have gotten so much harder. I wake up every morning wishing I were sleeping still. I can't sleep or eat, let alone even get out of bed and start the day. As soon as I step forward one inch, I get pushed back three. I'm trying really hard to keep a positive mindset, I really am, I just can't seem to deal with anything anymore. I go to bed every night and just wish that I might not wake up in the morning. I really can't seem to remember the last time I truly felt even "good". It's always been lower than that. It feels like I'm stuck in a hole and I don't have anyone to help me out, It's just me with the mud walls and there's nothing to get me out except for my bare hands. That's the only way I can possibly even describe it.
-Matthew

Hi Matthew and welcome to the forum.

At the top of the Depression thread you will see a thread entitled "Resources" please review these as soon as you can.

There are many things available to help you. It is hard to deal with depression alone. Know that people do care
and we listen and support the best we can here.

Stay strong these things do get better.

Peace
Trina

I'm still taking it, but I might need to switch meds over.

Matt

If you don't mind my asking, what does your depression centre around?

As stupid as this sounds, when it comes to depression, the action has to come before the motivation. While depressed, you are never going to find reason to get up, push on, so on and so forth. You have to take action without thought, just do. It can be a walk around the block. Maybe do a load of laundry. It can be to call a friend for a quick chat. Once you take the action, the motivation, the purpose follows.

I wish you better days.