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Posted 3/29/2014 12:17 PM (GMT 0)
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGG!!!!!

mad mad mad mad mad sad sad sad sad shakehead shakehead shakehead shakehead shakehead confused confused confused confused cry cry cry cry cry cry cry

Turns out that for the past three days, i've been rambling to my mom about BYU, and guess what; she wasn't even listening! I just told her about it again and THEN she said that she wants me to study in brownstone for a year more and then go to BYU..

I am NOT telling her about that school and the news and all but i'm practically panicking and why is LIFE so CRUEL?!

what should i do ? cry
Posted 3/29/2014 12:23 PM (GMT 0)
i'm tired of running. i'm tired of lying. i'm especially tired of faking. i feel like i'm gathering all the sins that i could muster and get to hell.

i don't wanna have a dead end for my career.. i'm thinking too much about everything and i don't wanna end up like my cousin; very limited choices in college.
i don't wanna tell my mom, i don't wanna slack off, i don't wanna just keep on hanging in mid air anymore.

all i want is to study properly.. why is it so hard while everyone else seems to have what they need ? why is it so wrong to go to a school that i understand ? why is it so darn hard to go to a non-abusive school?!
Posted 3/29/2014 12:23 PM (GMT 0)
i wish i knew the answer my friend. i can only send you healing thoughts and prayers.

sorry i am not in a good place.
Posted 3/29/2014 12:27 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Joanne,

Try to take this just one day at a time. Try to relax. This will work out for the best for you as long as you continue to try like you have been. Have faith that things will work out. You are young... Be happy for that. You have a lot of living to do. Enjoy life one day at a time.

I don't have answers just suggestions. I hope you get in the school that you like. And I am sorry mom wasn't listening. Maybe she hears more than you know...

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 3/29/2014 12:33 PM (GMT 0)
Jaimee- s'okay.

Karen- try what ? it's a dead end. I don't know which way to go. i'm just simply stuck.
she didn't hear me because when i asked her whether she was hearing or not, she just simply shakes her head.

I need a choice. I can't find that choice. I don't wanna go back.
Posted 3/29/2014 7:27 PM (GMT 0)
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sorry, just gotta do that.. i don't know what the hell to do with life. i'm only human.

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 3/29/2014 1:30:46 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 3/29/2014 7:30 PM (GMT 0)
I think you are thinking about it too much. Try going with the flow right now and take your mind off of things so you can get some rest. I have to edit a post as I think your script is making the posts wide. I wont change any words, Just the format...

Hugs, Karen...


Got it., Your one long word made the page go wider than it should so I broke it up some...
Posted 3/29/2014 7:32 PM (GMT 0)
but how ? i can't stop thinking about my school. it's shutting down. i am not gonna have a place to study. i have to tell my mom. i don't wanna tell my mom. i don't wanna go back.
my life's career is on stake. oh God.
Posted 3/29/2014 10:50 PM (GMT 0)
okay Carl, heads up, straight ahead. Got it.
So i have a few questions here:

question no. 1) problem is in malaysia, 14 y/o students are in year 8 whilst in the US, 14 y/o students are in the ninth grade. In BYU, they accept students who are 14 and above but that goes to the US students. My mom wouldn't allow me to jump. At All. is there anything that i could prove her ?

2) can you help me (or anybody else) read this news ? just type down Brownstone Academy News and click on the link that says Texas Attorney General freezes assets of alleged Houston diploma mills. It says there that it's from Lincoln Academy and its affiliate Brownstone Academy. so does this means that it will affect brownstone or not ?

thanksss.. i'll defend myself as soon as i have proof. but if possible, just quickly finish the eight grade (in 3-6 moths) and transfer the credits to BYU.. if that's still possible.
but thanks for the tip anyways Carl.

J
Posted 3/30/2014 8:08 PM (GMT 0)
yea, UK option or not, i don't really care.

what i meant was i haven't told my mom yet..
i told her that i want to change to BYU but she wouldn't let me jump into a higher grade since i'm in grade 8, i wanna jump to grade 9 but my mom's answer's a no so BYU is out of the option.. (they only offer grade 9 and above)

good news is, today we went out to eat with my sis-law and bro and they supported me to just jump. and since my sis and bro persuaded my mom, she said okay. i'm not sure whether she really meant it or not so it's a risk..
-but! when i asked her again in a serious manner, when we were alone and she said ok. BUT she has to review that school first and since she already went back to my lil country, i'm still staying in the city with my bro and sis for another month or so and...

yet for some reason, i still feel unsafe ):
well better than before but just not fully safe yet.. which is scary.
Posted 3/31/2014 7:47 AM (GMT 0)
hey i hope your mum holds true joanne. good on your family members to jump in and support you. that was good. still sending you positive vibes and healing thoughts. never surrender i say!!!
Posted 3/31/2014 8:00 AM (GMT 0)
thanks jamie, that means a lot (:
well, it's the perfect time for them to do that, and i'm very happy with that. healing thoughts and prayers are still being sent to you too, hope you feel better today.
i'll keep that saying in mind as long as you do too.
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