Shares and ideas about Celexa?

Hello! I would like to introduce myself to the depression forum. I am a 56 year old woman had have suffered with clinical major chronic depression since I was 16. This is my first depression forum! I am so proud I pushed through to finally post. I am also on the ulcerative colitis forum on Healing Well and that is the other major health issue going on for me that increases my struggle with depression when I am sick and at home alone a lot.

I wanted to ask others' thoughts about celexa and the mental quandary I have myself in, which i do a lot, wondering if the depression is more situational or should I insist on trying another med? I am sure many of you may think that thought?

My situation is basically I am too sick with colitis, fatigue and depression to work, get out and interact or volunteer or anything and i live in such a small town there are few opportunities. I am able to get out and I have some good friends but when i feel like i do today, I feel like I don't connect to the friend I sitting with talking, don't connect to life inside me or anywhere else.

I just noticed the other day I did not feel excited or passionate or interested in anything, which isn't really like me. I researched the med I am on Celexa 20 mg and found other posts where people felt like their insides were sucked out. Like they had no emotion or interest. I wondered if others have had or heard of that experience or If you have any thoughts to share about Celexa at all please?
I could get out my list of drugs I have tried...my experience has been they work and then stop working and/or through my depression I just quit them. this last winter I had a very bad episode around the holidays as usual and I cold turkey stopped Abilify and Lamictal. I experienced extreme panic for several weeks. I know it was terrifically unwise to cold turkey, but why would the absense of the drug make panic happen when i did not have it before?

I remember telling doc a lot i don't think the anti depressant is working, and he prescribed Abilify. I feel like i still have not found the right med for me. I know I have not tried effexor, paxil or wellbutrin. I take ativan 2mg and 25 mg. seroquel to sleep and after 20 years of not sleeping this is all that allows me a good nights sleep but i think it contributes to depression. For me, not sleeping and therefore being sick and inside all day the next day is worth taking the sleep meds. I always feel in a vicious cycle! I am on the cancellation list, but cannot see the shrink until near the end of next month being this small town has a very limited doctor. I appreciate any shares or thoughts to feel like i am not alone!