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Posted 5/3/2014 1:18 AM (GMT 0)

Hi All,

I hope everyone is well.

I still have my sense of humour, I can still get on with things, I have so much planned over the coming days,

though if you look deep down, you would know, how much internally I am struggling.

I feel that I have never felt this intensely, and today has kind of hit the nail on the head.

My anxiety was actually pretty high, though I still carried on, and was able to reason etc, I can still reason things, that is good.

I want to wish everyone well. I am not depressed, but somewhat more aware of the problems. Mostly situational over more recent years, spanning 6-7 years now. I know the reasons for most of it, which actually I wish it wasn't situational, as that would be easier for me to deal with.

:) It's all good, tomorrow I am looking forward to talking to a friend about the mundane things of life, having a nice time and visiting a park, lovely cafe etc :)

Post Edited (HappyBean) : 5/2/2014 7:21:26 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 5/3/2014 1:42 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks JB1,

It is really kind of you to respond :)

I have been thinking about that a lot at the moment, about living in the moment.

Thank you. I will have fun tomorrow. My counsellor told me, on our last meeting, to spend time with people who are good for me. That is what I am doing. I ended a long term counselling engagement recently, and in our last meeting, I am hanging on to the words a bit too. But it is helping me to focus a bit and think about important things.

How are you doing?
Posted 5/3/2014 1:46 AM (GMT 0)
HB,

I want to say this is wonderful. However it does not feel so. It is a big step in the healing process. You are aware of your feelings and mindful of them, knowing they are just feelings and can not hurt you.

You go on with your day and do not allow the feelings to control you. Good job, very hard work! You ought to be very proud! I am.

Peace
Trina
Posted 5/3/2014 1:59 AM (GMT 0)
Thank you Trina :)

I have tried hard today, and yesterday :) Thank you, it really means a lot, for you to reply.
Posted 5/3/2014 5:12 PM (GMT 0)
Living in the moment! oh so true isn't it? That's what I'm trying to do.

You have a nice day at the park and cafe, sounds so nice, it's good to get out and about even though it's so tough to do sometimes. :)
Posted 5/3/2014 9:39 PM (GMT 0)
HB, I am just glad to hear from you, you are a wonderful person
and add a lot to this site, there is a natural warmth that I feel
reading your posts, Peace

Larry ***
Posted 5/5/2014 7:53 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you Thundercloud and Larry :)

It is nice to hear from you. Larry, I hope you are well :)
Posted 5/5/2014 9:44 PM (GMT 0)
Hope you are feeling better today HB...

Hugs Karen
Posted 5/5/2014 9:51 PM (GMT 0)

Thank you Karen, yes :) I am fine today thank you! Had a good few days.

Post Edited (HappyBean) : 5/5/2014 4:19:28 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 5/6/2014 9:30 AM (GMT 0)
good. :-)
Posted 5/7/2014 9:28 PM (GMT 0)
Maybe my anxiety and my tiredness is just high tonight and I'm talking absolute rubbish!!

I'm sorry.
Posted 5/7/2014 9:51 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you JB1, I am in a weird mood today.

I think I have to get the 'it's too much, I just want to leave' out of my head, because it's not healthy really, and does cause me to flip a bit, if things don't go as well as they could do.

If I do leave, I thought about it the other day, to set myself a timescale, get new job by 'set a time scale'.

Think I need an early night :)

Happy Turtle: I'm sorry!!! I should have posted my vent separately to my thank you for your post, as I don't want you feeling any more stress from people like me! Please ignore my vent, stay in the happy relaxed zone. I read how you are trying to stay calm, that's really nice to hear.

Best Wishes HappyBean.
Posted 5/8/2014 8:58 AM (GMT 0)
no worries at all happyean. just know that we are here for you. i am just getting about and having a munch!! seriously i have a lot going on but i am staying as calm as possible. getting worked up gets you nowhere. it is cold here, and my computer and massive desk is in the kitchen, the coldest room in this joint. so it is time to find heat which is only in the lounge; thus the happy turtle is going to take his shell in there and get warm. have a nice day happybean. see ya soon. keep posting!!!
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