Having a rough day- boo!

So I am just venting. I try and keep it to a minimum but today is feeling really rotten and I know this is a safe and empathetic place to vent!

Nothing different today than any other day except it's gray outside. A couple of months ago, gray days were really troublesome for me. That was a new one. Not that anyone necc feels like doing a happy dance on a gray day but in my struggle this year, they really affect me.

My anxiety has been hovering but I took my normal morning Xanax then took a second this afternoon. I am not feeling overwhelmed w/anxiety, just a low, creepy, scary, frustrating mood. I've even called my psych nurse hotline to ask them if the Wellbutrin I've been on 2.5 weeks should be working by now. They're calling me back anytime.

I've just felt low, hopeless and moody. Not in a total pit just ticked off and frustrated begging God, the universe to pleaseeee lift this veil off of me!!!

My best friend is moving in several weeks and that's been making me sad so I know that's affecting me but the right med combo, judging from my past 3 times on meds in the past 20 years, helped me cope with life, including my dads sudden passing 6 yrs ago. I was on Cymbalta then and it was obviously working very well bc I didn't even take Xanax back then! I know we shouldn't compare but I get do angry thinking I got through my dads death why in the Haiti is it so hard this time with my friends moving!?

Hoping today is just a bad day and I'd tell any one of you it was just that- a bad day. And mean it. But I am not as understanding with my own self! Grr!!

Thanks for listening!!! Hugs to all!!!

Oh yeah. I'm in therapy, CBT, once/week with an MFT (marriage and family therapist- my marriage is fine lol, I go for individual therapy). I also see a psychologist every other week (the MFT is male- I like him a lot and the psychologist is female. I got 8 free sessions with her through insurance. Wanted a female perspective w/all of this).

Thank you for the hugs!

Hi Lisa,

I sure do hope that you feel better soon. Remember when the anxiety creeps in, do breathing exercises. In through the nose and out through the mouth. Smelling the roses and blowing out the candles. It does help if you practice it.

I hope your medication starts to work soon so you can feel better. Can you Skype with your friend after she moves? It does help to see that person on Skype.

Hugs, Karen...

Got me a hair appointment for tomorrow. Spiral time...

Glad that the anxiety isn't bad anyway. Glad you are going out. Enjoy!!!

Hugs, Karen...

Cool Jan,

I love spirals though I don't like sitting through them. But it is time for some curl!!!

Hugs, Karen...