No family support.

hi, my name is alexia, im 15 years old. I have a great family who gives me everything i ask for, and in grateful for that. but when it comes to what matters to me, i lose there attention.. ive been suffering depression over 9 years of my life. that was when i lived with my dad an step mom was abusive. then i mived with my mom, my step dad teases me about everything. and to a point were its too far and i cry. Ive taken medications, seen councellers but nothing seems to work. im fine at school and in sports, i do all my homework an behave well. but still i feel this sadness in me that i cant ignore. i dont do drugs or anything, i play video games and make videos on yt. my dad supports me in it because he knows it means a lot to me, so that means some days i stay in my room for an excessive amount of time. wgich heres were the teasing comes in. my step dad and mom LOVE to tell everyone that im a gamer an that i dont come out of my room. cuz thats all they see it as they dont see it as oh, she makes videos for other people to enjoy and bw entertained. after i make a video ill come out just for a drink of water! an they will say "welcome out of your room. care to join the family?" usually ide sit with them, but they will yell at me, or get me into trouble. im getting back into depression. i cant help it. we go on vacation an his whole family makes jokes. im never allowed an opinion in anything.. it feels like i have no were to go.. mu dad does the same, he can be understandinf but everyone in my family ignores my depression. they just call me selfish and say its my choice.. im on edge here an i need help. someone pls reply?

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 8/9/2014 2:44:16 PM (GMT-6)

I agree with AV... Communication... Do you go to therapy? That might help you and your family. I don't think anybody intends to hurt you. I get comments from my husband because I am on the computer a lot. But it doesn't bother me. That is the key, don't let it get to you. Maybe spend less time on the computer and some more time with family.

I had to remove one sentence in your post. We can't discuss self harm here, but I think you should discuss it with a doctor or a therapist. There is something going on there or else you wouldn't be doing it.

I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen...

PS Welcome to the forum!!!

You are young and suffering with depression. What you need to understand is that it can be life long. The sooner you work on it, the more control you have over it. You need to go to counseling, talk to doctors and continue to use coping skills. You may have to learn the coping skills first.

On the first thread on the forum called "depression resources" there are sites for mindfulness and sites for teens. I recommend that you check them out. I think that they will help you.

When we have depression, we have to be proactive. Even if it is a temporary fix, it is something.

I am sorry that they tease you, but you still have to work on you. It is your depression. If you don't work on it, you will never feel better. Let the teasing roll off of your back. Unless you are going to talk to them, you should ignore it.

Staying in your room for two to four hours is a long time. You need to be outside having fun. You can get on the computer any time. These little things can help you. I know your parents may not understand what you are going through but you need to understand it. Work on it. Talk to somebody, see a doctor. I Hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen...