Seem to be doing SO much better

I just wanted to give an update on my depression/anxiety, it just seems like out of the blue I just started feeling better, I am still taking the brintellix and don't know if I have had any panic attacks at all, and the crying has almost stopped.

The thing about my panic attacks is I am not allowing my body to go without the xanax to see if I am going to have a panic attack, but I can go over 12 hours without a xanax and have not panic attacks at all.

This morning I did feel a little shaky, I am going to try to wean myself to a lower dose of xanax, but not quite sure how to do it, I see my doctor on the 8th and I will see what he says.

My therapy has stopped for now because medicaid decided they were going to change my plan, to a specialty plan for people with mental issues( I was like wow that is crazy in itself) but I called and changed my plan to the one I was on which won't go into effect until 10/01.

Thankfully Dr. Franco takes this new insurance so I can still see him this month.

I'm so happy to hear this. I have been praying for you.

Yes, I really have emotionally felt so much better which is such a blessing.

Today though I have been achy, almost like flu like symptoms, but who knows I may have a touch of something, I surely know my body doesn't ache from my massive work out routine

Yes, Karen I will talk to my doctor before I really decrease the dosage of my xanax, I, like you, used to only have to take .5 mg's a day, I literally had like 2 full bottles of xanax because I would still get them filled "just in case". so I am hoping I can get back to that point.

Yes my doctor was aware that I hoarded my xanax, he said that can be typical with people with anxiety, I would have one here just in case I lost my purse, one hid here just in case some one broke into my home, then I would carry random pills, like one in my wallet, one in my pocket..I have stopped doing that, that was a little OCD-ish in my opinion.(but I was robbed of my xanax years ago, so that may be why I have such a great fear of losing them, and I had someone try to fill my prescription of xanax and CVS called me and asked if I was trying to fill my prescription, I told them no, so they cancelled it, I asked why didn't they let the person try to pick them up so they could get in trouble..forget what they said but they did tell me to always tear off the information and rip it up from my medication bottles)

Wow I got way off topic...sorry!

I do the same thing Brenda. I hoard them. I told her I only needed two a day but she is giving me 15 extra just incase. She told me to hoard them for bad days. So I am. But I have about 100 stashed. Same with my ambien. I was taking a half every other night. Now I have a good stash... lol... It keeps me feeling secure...

Good morning!!!

Hugs, Karen...

I just saw this thread. Thank God girl. You deserve nothing but peace and light in your soul. I think we are heading in the right direction. I've been decreasing my Xanax too. Just been taking a baby .25/in morning. I was taking up to three .25's/day. I hoard them too! I've even hoarded the tiny bits I've snipped off whole ones when i didn't want to take a whole one. Thankfully my psych is generous with the Xanax rx's. I carried Xanax in my purse for MANY years even though I never did take them and eventually had to throw it out bc it turned to dust lol.

Now that I am taking them, I too have them in purse (hidden!), and a bottle in my home. I too had a friend get in my purse before and stole the like 2 dusty pills I had in purse over 5 yrs. They were .25's. I'd never had someone steal from me and it was sad. She was a terrible pill addict but I never ever suspected she'd steal from close friends.

Anyway, I digress. I'm glad you're reporting better days. This is a good thing & thanks for telling us. Ladies, I pray daily (many times) and like I told Kaez in another post, I have a list of names of abt 8 of us in here that I specifically pray for. You're one of them Brenda!

Post Edited (lesweet1971) : 9/5/2014 8:38:08 PM (GMT-6)