Am I depressed or really sick?

Having success on Brintellix when upped to 20 mgs for two weeks was wonderful, but then I went down to 10mgs because of the insurance issue, to having none because Walgreens had to order them(knowing I was waiting on this prescription, you would think they would have it)

So I have been back on 20mg's for maybe a week or two, but last Tuesday I started my period and felt very sick, later realized I had the flu? was achy all over, sore throat and running what appeared to be a fever.

It has been over a week and I still feel very weak and just yucky, I invested in a thermometer, which can be a hypochondriacs worst nightmare, my temperature has always ran 1 degree lower than the normal temperature, but when I took my temp it was 95.3 and finally reached a high of 95.7, then later it went up to 96 degrees.

I googled low temps, and that wasn't a real good thing to do. I just can't tell am I SO depressed that my body is literally aching, but my mind is telling me I am not depressed, or if my body can't fight whatever is wrong with it because my temperature will not go up, or am I one step away from a nervous break down?

Thank you Karen, it does help to post, I think just getting it off of my chest helps. I tend to really pull away from people when I am having a difficult time, and that is probably the time I need them the most, but my therapist is really trying to help with this issue, I have a very hard time letting people in for long, and I don't want to be like this, truthfully I think I could like people if I didn't have such an issue with myself.

I am hoping it is just the flu, I should have went to the Dr's but had my Psychiatrist appointment and therapy, and still went feeling bad. My doctor really thought I was doing well because of all I have been through, and I am probably just crumbling at the moment, it does feel like I am broken.

I saw a very sad commercial once that I will never get out of my mind, it was how ****** it was the saddest thing I have ever seen, thankfully the commercial only ran one time that I saw, but I will never get that image out of my head, his sadness, he had gave up, I feel broken like that, I SO relate to that *** this week, people can be broken with abuse and I am broken at the moment.

Post Edited By Moderator (BnotAfraid) : 10/17/2014 10:09:57 AM (GMT-6)

Brenda,

Had to edit out the graphics that were putting pictures into everyones head. Not a good thing.

However, I get how your fell, you are NOT broken, just a little bruised and need some self-compassion and TLC!

Lisa and Karen are right read their posts again.

Stop taking your temp. Put the thermometer away. Unless you don't drink anything for 30min before taking it, it will be lower than 98.6. Plus is if your mouth is open most of the time it can go lower.
Some people have lower temps. This is NORMAL!

Stay off the internet and stop self-diagnosising, worst thing you can do to yourself! DO NOT watch the news!

Drink room temp water, put orange slices or lemon slices in it.
Put comfy clothes on, cuddle up, watch a good movie, put tunes on and draw or do a puzzle book, knit, crochet. Read a good book.

Take care of yourself! Eat balanced meals.

You will be feeling better soon!

Peace and hugs!
Trina