Frustrated

I don't post that much on here anymore but I don't know where else to turn at the moment... Back in September I had a mental breakdown and had to leave my jobs which was extremely hard. My sister and her family took me in until I can get back on my feet. I've tried to be open and honest with her about my diagnosis's (bipolar, depression, borderline personality, OCD, PTSD, and social phobia as well as a learning disability) "we" had a long talk (she talked I tried to listen and process without blowing up at her) and was told that I self diagnosed everything except the depression. It took me forever to finally admit that I had each of the diagnosis's and to open up and share that with people and then to have her to just dismiss it like that hurts... When talking about the PTSD, I tried explaining the reasoning for it and was told to "grow a pair and get over it" She swears up and down my meds are causing the symptoms of bipolar... I love the meds I'm on now I was taken off Abilify and celexa sand put on latuda to see if it would help with the anger and depression. It's still an issue but not as bad.. It seems more of an issue to her because I'm not holding it in anymore. I'm finally learning how to express myself in small doses.

I've come to be very angry and resentful toward her for not understanding or refusing to realize yes I do have stuff I need to work on.
I'm no longer allowed alone time in my room because I was being too "antisocial" ... She thinks by pushing me to be more social it will fix the social phobia. It's a house full of 7 people... 3 adults and 4 kids... We all need alone time at one point or another.
I've never had such a deep depression cycle.. It used to go kinda depressed and then a lil mania and lil longer depressed, less mania.. I'm missing the mania right now I know that may sound silly but the only bright side I've seen happen since September is med change which has lessened the harmful thoughts to a minimum even when stressed.

If you all have any suggestions on how to handle things it'd be greatly appreciated!

I just turned 28 after the new year. I was so used to living by myself and helping only myself get through the fact of having a mental illness. I never really pulled my family in as they had a bad time with therapy when I was little and it put a bad taste in their mouth. Friends have been awesome but now they are so far away (I moved 5 hrs away..) it's hard.

I wouldn't let them dictate what I do and how I feel. If you feel like being in your room, you should be able to. Just don't spend all your time there. I like to be alone a lot. So I do understand that part...

I hope things work out for you. Keep focusing on you and working on getting better. We are all a work in progress...

Keep posting, it does help...

Hugs, Karen...

Things seem to be a bit better between my sis and me. We texted for awhile while I told her why I was upset at her. I'm trying to convince myself it is ok to begin to look for another job. I quit my two jobs in sept when I had a mental breakdown and moved outta state to my sister's.

I realized though even though I loved my jobs I was doing them for the wrong reason. I was doing them for everyone else's satisfaction. I wanted/needed to be told how good of a job I was doing so I'd often stay and do extra work off the clock. (I worked in a special ed classroom so there was always stuff to be done or made) it helped that there was that unconditional love from the kids especially when I did special ed preschool.

So now it's a search of what in the heck do I wanna do?!?!