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Posted 5/16/2015 5:22 PM (GMT 0)
down because my temptation to get in front with some bills and stuff has actually left me short. that's what happens when you go walk about in the wee hours. just a little more money than i would have not liked to lose. i was stressed and avoidance coped in a negative way. expletive idiot. i am too overwhelmed. you know i am human. there went some coin to get to be with deb. i need to go to bed soon. i think.............just for now that i had a bad night. everything got to me and i did my stupid thing. although stupid in nature there was some cathartic value, if that makes sense. anyway-............off to bed.
Posted 5/16/2015 5:55 PM (GMT 0)
It makes sense Jamie... We all hope for that. Chalk it up to experience... Try not to dwell. One day at a time... We can't change what happened, so we have to make the best of it. I know you can do that. I am sure you will get through. I hope you get a good sleep. Try to get things off of your mind. Listen to some music... No worries...

Hope you feel better soon mate...

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 5/17/2015 1:56 AM (GMT 0)
Happy Turtle:
We all do some regrettable things when we are down and it is late at night. I seem to have to spend money that I really don't have. Even tho we don't always think so tomorrow is usually a better day. Take care.

jani
Posted 5/17/2015 5:11 AM (GMT 0)
Sorry you are down Turtle. Hope you are feeling better soon.
Posted 5/17/2015 6:11 AM (GMT 0)
thx everyone. i actually slept better. de-stressed.
Posted 5/17/2015 1:44 PM (GMT 0)
We all have our not so stellar cringe worthy moments! Most of the time once you've had a good nights sleep it doesn't seem so bad in the morning! Cheer up we are only human!! Hugs!
Posted 5/18/2015 11:43 AM (GMT 0)
How does one get rid of the guilt and self recrimination? I feel horrible about the smallest things and can't get rid of the guilt. It is eating me away inside. How does one do that? Were you successful?
Posted 5/18/2015 12:03 PM (GMT 0)
thx everyone. mmoser. for me it is forgiving myself. still there, and will always be; just not over think about it. use some positive coping skills. i am in therapy, and that helps. the success is the effective management of it. we are all works in progress.
Posted 5/18/2015 4:31 PM (GMT 0)
Hey! You are NOT an idiot!!! I prepay bills all the time, and then miss some completely. It iss always an adventure in this house!

If we need something we put extra money in our small saving account. For instance, we need a new oven/stove microwave. Need 1500.00 We are up to 800.00 in the savings account.
I can not pay bills with it do to the account it is in.

Trina proof as my hubby says!!

Love peace and hugs
Trina
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