Constant crying

Sounds like you have been through a lot, but it sounds right that the relationship has ended, even when we love someone dearly, sometimes the relationship is harmful, especially when it is abusive. I know you probably feel lost and like your life is over, but this can be the start of your recovery as well. Apart from him your emotional scars can start to heal, it will be a long process but over time it will get easier. Maybe the meds never worked because you were still with him, the source of your mental anguish and no med can make up for that.

I think intensive therapy sounds like the right way forward, it can help you to address the real issues and help you cope. For now just take each day one at a time, don't feel bad about crying, you have just ended a 15 year relationship in a horrible way, it is perfectly natural to be upset. But things will be better, nothing lasts forever, you are going through the worst part now, over time it will gradually get easier.

Best wishes

Medication provides people a space to manage their depression and gives therapy some time to work. This has been most helpful to me. Having been where you are (In 2000,) I can say it is awful,but it is better in the long run. It really is. Learning to be yourself again and overcoming the pain of the marriage can help you to have faith in yourself and your future.

Medication sensitivity is not considered intolerance to the medicine itself--it is intolerance to side effects. All medications include side effects, and one of those is the main symptom/problem the medication is being taken to address. Sometimes, ti is an issue of finding the medication that works the best with the least harmful side effects.

Doctors suggest several things to help patients combat medication sensitivity. "Start low and go slow." helps the body get used to the medication slowly, managing the most f=harmful side effects. A patient's emotional and personal dynamics may also play a role. Distrust of physicians in general, anger at being 'controlled', even transference may attach itself to the patient's experience of the medication.

Finally--medication sensitivity demands that the patient and the doctor work together, on the basic premise that the patient AND the doctor want to see results and a change in symptoms.

From http://www.currentpsychiatry.com/the-publication/past-issue-single-view/help-sensitive-patients-tolerate-medication/0c219c40c277c327ea07c967b11819a6.html

"I often tell patients, “You happen to be sensitive to side effects of medication. We might have to try a number of different medications before we find one that works and is tolerable. Furthermore, we need to start at a very low dose and take things very slowly.” This statement: recognizes and accepts patients’ sensitivity... and allows for externalization of some responsibility for troublesome side effects to the medication... [It] conveys a sense of therapeutic uncertainty [and] allows patients to undertake treatment at a comfortable pace.

Cilly once a beater always a beater. I do not believe his diagnosis of bipolar has anything to do with that violent behavior. On or off meds.
I know to many people male and female who are bipolar and are not violent.

The best thing is to end this relationship.

It hurts like hell right know. Evenutally the emotions will balance for you and you will get stronger. You are worth so much more in life. Stay with your docs and let them know 100% how you are feeling. We are here for you to help support and listen.


YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

Peace and strength
Trina

cilly,

If you need to go to a shelter, the pup wont hold you back. Take the pup to an animal shelter. No excuses...

You have to do what is right for you, not what is right for everybody else...

Yes being with puppy is relaxing and keeps my mind off things .
Without pup it's would be unbearable.I might look intoautogenics.
Things will never be easier as I loved him and saw this relationship as forever which is shattered ,which is very hard for me to accept but I need to.
I do not see myself in another relationship that's for sure .
Talked to a therapist and he suggested Remap for anxiety .I just wanna try anything that works.
Thanks so much for support.

Hello there

Try to take care of yourself, you have to give YOU the importance that you deserve.
Give yourself time to grieve through this process, it's terribly awful because it's a loss, but the sooner you face it, the sooner you can overcome this.

You must be exhausted with all this and it's the moment to take care of yourself.

I really hope that you can keep your little pet! I have 2 lovely cats and certainly they are wonderful companions :)

I love cats but feel phobic bout them since childhood.

I wish I could have a kitten .

I always complain and rant on this website,I do not like that.

My anxiety levels and lupus and Fibro flares are just following like a loop.

I hope they end fast and effective.
My sleep is deeply affected by all this and flares are becoming common.

I have a puppy and cannot survive without it.
Her health also causes me worry and anxiety.....

God bless for listening .....
I do not want to be a pain...to anyone reading this...

Hi

I'm sorry to hear about what happened to your relationship. Its really awful how it went. But as far as I can see the relationship is over. But that doesn't mean that the love is over too. You can continue to love him at a distance, and there you can also start living your life to its utmost potential. You shouldn't let yourself be pulled down by what I can only say as a intersection relationship meaning that both of you eventually will go on different directions.

You mentioned that your medications fail to work, then why not try counseling therapy. It will help your depression and at the same time can give you tips on how to cope up with your situation. I know you were hurt by him but because you love him you simply can not abandon him. But trust me going on your separate ways is not abandonment. It's just the more beneficial way. Love is a test of sacrifice and sometimes the best way of sacrifice is to sacrifice love.