In need of encouragement

I wouldn't worry about what your colleagues say. Chances are they aren't even thinking it, but I don't know. You know what is going on and that is all that matters. I hope you feel better soon.

Good luck with your appointment on the 16th. I hope that the psychiatrist has some help for you.

Hugs, Karen...

You say,

"The only thing I'm looking forward is the appointment with the psychiatrist on 16 August. I really hope this psychiatrist can help me sort out all my problems..."

I didn't know where you were in that process. It sounds like you're taking care of yourself.

You say, "I am just living everyday feeling empty and meaningless."

How long have you been depressed? Did it start with an event? Does it run in your family? Have you ever had it before?

Tim Tam,
I have been feeling this way for over a month...i have no motivation to do anything. I think it was triggered due to work politics and family issues. In the past, I went to the pdoc more for anxiety issues.

I am quite convinced that some colleagues are talking about my work performance. I feel hurt knowing that I cant will myself to change anything despite everything they say. I requested to take a week off after my notice period, and im being thought as difficult. I am going through a difficult time and ita made worse by my social anxiety.

Post Edited (Evelyn L) : 7/27/2016 9:28:32 AM (GMT-6)

Have you ever heard the saying "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me."? This was something I was taught as a child. I got picked on...a lot. The saying helped a bit.

People gossip and talk about others in order to make themselves feel better, bigger, more successful, etc.

So, I try to look at it as I am helping someone else feel better about themselves, giving them something to occupy their time, etc. They must have pretty boring lives if they are getting excitement from talking about me! The point is, it's not MY truth!

It makes me uncomfortable simply because I've been 'guilty' of it myself! I think, at some point, everyone has talked about someone else in an unkind manner.

Focus on the steps you are taking to take care of yourself.

Hi Tim Tam,

The pdoc prescribed me Lexapro (5mg for first week and 10mg subsequently). He diagnosed me as moderate depression with anxiety.

So far the main side effects I get is sleepiness. Thank God for that. I did not go back to my school to be a relief teacher. Just hoping that after the therapeutic effect of Lexapro kicks in, I am able to function again and get myself another job.

I don't really like going to the pdoc and telling them my problems, but I recognize I need to get past the hurdle to get better.

Thank you for asking!

Evelyn:

Thank you for giving us an update on your Aug. 16 appointment with, yes, your very own pdoc.

Aug. 16 was as important to me as Columbus Day, and I could barely wait to hear the outcome of that.

It didn't seem like it would ever arrive.

You are a woman of few words. No word from you until the appointment day actually arrived.

You are too cute.

Now, where were we? Oh, yeah, back to your pdoc. Everything centers around your pdoc. My spell checker doesn't know what that word means.

OK, the pdoc said, well, he said he diagnosed you as "moderate depression with anxiety."

OK, so much for what the pdoc said.

OK, and now, the same pdoc prescribed you Lexapro.

Did you keep a straight face, knowing that his name is pdoc?

He did not go to four years of med school to be referred to by you as "Mr. Pdoc," or "Dr. Pdoc," as you might prefer.

He takes his work seriously. Don't reduce him to jelly. You denigrate his profession.

He deserves more respect than that. He spent long hours, OK, anyway, you did go to the appointment. That's the important thing. No it's not.

Did you watch the PGA golf tournament as I suggested? Who won? I watched it, but I don't know who won.

OK, so your pdoc, or Dr. Pdoc as you say, prescribed you Lexapro. OK, no I'm OK, I'm keeping up, your pdoc prescribed Lexapro.

How is that going? The Lexapro. Are you feeling better?

The main side affect, you say, is sleepiness. But, that is a relief, you said. You can thank your pdoc for that.

You did not go back to school as a relief teacher. You can thank yourself for that.

I'm almost afraid to ask. When is your next appointment with your pdoc? I'm OK, Evelyn. I'm keeping up.

Is your next appointment in a month? We're going to have to wait another month? We barely made till this month. I didn't think the 16th would ever get here.

I don't know what TV shows are coming up in the next month, so I don't know what to suggest. Bedrest, how about that. Warm bath, OK. Stay away from those jerks at work.

You say, "Just hoping that after the therapeutic effect of Lexapro kicks in, I am able to function again and get myself another job."

I was wondering about people going to work on meds, also. I was able to do that with anti-dep., so I think you can. Was able to function as a parent, also, did better at that because I wasn't depressed.

Then you said, "I don't really like going to the pdoc and telling them my problems, but I recognize I need to get past the hurdle to get better."

I don't know about how you're doing, but you've made me better.

And thank you, for letting us know how the Aug. 16 appointment went.

And if you would, please let us know how the next appointment goes with the you-know-who.