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Posted 4/29/2017 9:07 AM (GMT 0)
am struggling, but send healing thoughts to everyone.
Posted 4/29/2017 10:01 PM (GMT 0)
Hello all

Lots to cover here we go,

Myself- I am sorry that the cold took your squash! I am sorry for the loss of your aunt. So sad. Our family does shape who we are and we have to decide how we use that to make ourselves better. Be strong

Karen- Anxiety is the same for me as far as limiting my life, but I am okay with that and so I do not care what others say. LOL Hope you have a good one.

Derwood- I am so sorry that the wait is so long, I can't believe that the government would allow that. I am glad that you have your brother and your kitty to help you out. I hope that you do not have to wait much longer. That is so bad of the government to not make a difference. I know it has been said but Trina has always be honest and has always tried to help. I am sorry that is the way you saw her post. Please do not give up on this fight you are very worth the fight.

Trina- I am very sorry for the foot pain, dang foot! Hope you heal quickly. Robin was a an awesome person who had demons that he could no longer fight. He did more charity work then anyone could have thought. Some people see his loss as a "film" tragedy, but it was a human tragedy.

Pitmom- You have been a busy little bee! I am glad your rain let up. The rain and cloudy days just bring me down. Ugh! Be easy on your body hun.

HT- I am so sorry that things are still not good for you hun, darn brains of ours. Keep strong on every front of your life. It will get better soon. Metallica is an awesome band!! I have always loved them.


Okay so I have been stressed and in a horrible amount of pain. Ugh Painful bladder syndrome is heck on me! Mom, sister, dad, aunt and sisters boyfriend were mad at me last night. I didn't care either.

The comment went around that the "Adults" were going to a baseball game today, I was livid! I did not say a word, then at 10 pm they told me to watch sis's boyfriends daughter, now I normally have no problem with this, but I am sick of people not asking me, but telling what I am going to do! Hello 32 years old!!! So I said NOPE!

Needless to say that went over like a lead balloon! I told them that no matter how much they offered to pay me I was sick of being taken for granted and I would not do it. this morning they told me my niece was gonna do it.

My mom came into my room and said that I was acting like a brat and I should just do it. I told her NO and told her to leave my room. I slept with my door closed and locked. My son and I did have a Mother Son date night last night. It was nice to be out just him and I. We ate dinner and talked and just had a nice time.

Well besides that, my friend's brother funeral is the 8th of May. I am not sure of the time, but I am going to try to go. I am going to get thing's going in my house. I have to clean while everyone is gone, so taht has to get started. More another time.

Stay strong and fight the good fight!
Posted 4/30/2017 12:48 AM (GMT 0)
Dawn, great boundaries! Whoo Hoo!....

People are shocked when we act differently and start to stand up for ourselves. However, they will become use to it. As you saw, their are other people available to do the jobs.

Well done.

Feel better soon.
Peace
Trina
Posted 4/30/2017 8:45 AM (GMT 0)
Hi all,

Trina- My mom did come in and say she was sorry for acting the way she did and she said that she would not let it happen again and that she was proud I stood my ground.

Had a really good day! Busy but good. Was kind of scary for a few mins, but it turned out. We made pigs of ourselves and had fun. Everyone else had fun while out and poor mom was so sore that she needed help with her shoes and socks.

Well we all got caught up and then I left the room so they could go to bed and I could write her and journal.

Now I take my leave and go to sleep as I am super tired myself.

Be strong and fight the good fight everyone!!!
Posted 5/2/2017 11:09 PM (GMT 0)
Happy May everyone!

Hope all are well.

I've been quite busy outdoors and then so tired once I'm done I basically go right to bed after supper.

Hands are stiff, typing is tough.

More later.....maybe much later.
Posted 5/2/2017 11:37 PM (GMT 0)
Stiff here too. Cold. Snow believe it or not. Suppose to be better tomorrow.

Dawn, I am glad you had such a good day. Sometimes good is even scary. Though I know what you mean.

Good day to all, Pitmom, Trina, Jamie, and anybody I missed...

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 5/3/2017 2:42 AM (GMT 0)
hi everyone, still kickin' and screamin'.
Posted 5/3/2017 3:46 PM (GMT 0)
screaming, has been known, [in the Ghost hunting shows ???] to chase the ghouls away!

May do the same with our demons.

Scream on mate, deep form gullet and diaphram.

Peace and strength
Trina
Posted 5/3/2017 9:52 PM (GMT 0)
Sitting with my t.e.n.s. unit running for my lumbar spine. Got a bit 'full of myself' today...6 loads of wash, 5 of them hung out on the line, the 6th got put in the dryer. Too windy to dry sheets outside.

Meanwhile, I got out the bucket, sponge and Mr. Clean and I washed the lower walls in the hallway. They are white again! The plan is to wash the upper walls tomorrow. We shall see how the shoulders feel about that! Seriously amazed at how dirty the walls were after a long winter. Glad I painted that part with semi gloss! Plans are to paint again, this time charcoal gray semi gloss and the upper parts which are now 'pale daffodil' yellow, a nice silvery gray, satin finish.

I have sunburn on the tops of my feet! Makes wearing sneakers again a bit uncomfortable. Sigh.

Found my sugar snap pea seeds. The cucumber transplants are doing well. The strawberry plants look good too. Almost time to cut some lettuce leaves! Still waiting for the type of cherry tomato transplants that we like to grow at the garden center...'Sun Gold'...they are orange when ripe and seem to have a bit less acidity.

Lilacs are done, I've been cutting them back. The hot pink azalea has taken center stage and the lily of the valley are providing fragrance now. I found the nemesia finally, an annual with a lovely scent. Potted it up and have it on the patio table.

The freesias have sprouted, the canna are unfurling their leaves, the white amaryllis is starting to push up greenery...spring has sprung for sure!

Hope everyone is having a good day and that peace finds each of us.
Posted 5/4/2017 5:26 AM (GMT 0)
Hi all,

HT- Kick and Scream bud, it all helps. Stay strong. Hugs to ya.

Karen- More snow? Wow late in the year for that. We will be getting rain on Sunday, We just got the swamp cooler running yesterday. Oh well still worth the effort. Stay warm.

Pitmom- Goodness take it easy on you my dear, Don't do too much at once or you will be down hun, I am glad that you can do and your garden sounds lovely but you matter most. Take it easy.

Hi Trina and Derwood! Stay strong my friends!!!

Yesterday was horrible (the second of May) the heat was so bad I got a small sunburn between my shoulder blades and I had a regular T-shirt on. I was so worn out and sick that I slept from 8pm to 10pm and still felt blah!!!

Today(May 3) I woke up with a ton of energy and I got all of my monthly shopping done before 9 am!!! Then I came home paid bills, took a little nap as well.
I got everything done before my nap though. then this evening
I got my hair cut and it was past my shoulder blades this time.
I walked out lighter and a new lady. LOL!! Now I figure I need to keep my hair short because even in the Winter I can't have my hair down or I sweat. So that was my couple of days.
I also trying Melatonin tonight!!!

Hope that all are well and happy. Stay strong and warm or cool. Sleep well!
Posted 5/4/2017 11:47 AM (GMT 0)
Hope that the melatonin works well for you Dawn. My husband takes 10 mg a night.

You both make me tired reading your posts, You and Pitmom are both getting so much done.

Looks like rain here today darn. It was sunny yesterday. I was hoping for sun again today.

Take care all and have a lovely day...

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 5/5/2017 6:51 AM (GMT 0)
Hi all,

Karen- I did not take it last night as I forgot my pills until 1 am!! So I will start tomorrow (Friday) that way I can take them late should I forget and not have a problem with needing to get up early.

Hi all, Stay strong and keep fighting


Not a good day, super hot!! That made me very sick to my stomach.
Then my dad came home and they wanted me to go and get dinner, I would normally do that, but we have no ac in the car and I did not want to feel anymore sick so I said no. Well that is when it all came lose!

I was lazy and never did anything for my parents, they yelled at me for 30 mins over not doing anything for them or being lazy. So I came into my room and fell asleep because I refused to cry! Now I am just depressed.

I guess that is gonna be a normal reaction now with them. My dad would not talk or look at me when I got up and my mom didn't talk to me for a couple more hours after that. I am not sure that I can keep staying here, but have no place else to live.

More another time.
Posted 5/5/2017 5:44 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Dawn,

It is hard, living with parents after a certain age, and with mental challenges on top of it.
So many emotions and misunderstandings, things said that are meant or in the wrong way.

I had to move back in at age of 27 because the car my father [who worked for Ford] t6 alked me into to buying was a lemon, cam shaft when with in a year. Dealer did nothing even thought he was the Parts manger there. I have no money, no car.

Longest 6 months of my life.

I found a job within 2 days. Saved every penny, besides the 100.00 I had to pay in rent, Yea, right? Every day, my mother yelled at me to move out, that I was not welcome in the house anymore.

If I was not working overtime, I was in my room. Luckly I worked at a hotel and it was in the '80s when they let you take food home. So I didn't have to pay for food.

I ramble....

Point is I empathize.

If you need to move out, take the steps to do so, if being the process will make you feel better. I suggest you not tell your parents if possible. Not until it is going to happen.

Peace and strength
Trina
Posted 5/5/2017 6:33 PM (GMT 0)
A funny thing happened...

I haven't been feeling too great for several months. Nothing specific, but just dragging.

Then Sunday I started a Statin to treat high cholesterol (that didn't seem to respond to my dietary changes). I'm not sleeping as much, which is generally an issue for someone with Lupus and depression...

But I feel better!!! What the heck is going on? Anyone run into anything similar? I'm not complaining, mind you, just would like to figure out if this is something I can count on or if it's going to magically disappear as quickly as it came.

Post Edited (Lynnwood) : 5/5/2017 9:20:40 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 5/6/2017 5:04 AM (GMT 0)
Hi all,

Lynnwood- I am so glad that you are feeling better!! Yay!! I have had antidepressants do the same thing for me. My Celexa is doing that to me and more! I feel good and some other things are coming back I haven't felt in years!!

Trina- I would love to move out but 540 a month will not even pay rent. I can not work as my p doc told me that if I started to work he would no longer see me and the only other doc I could see has a 6 month waiting list and I can not go without my meds that long. Rock and a hard spot right now. I ramble as well so it is okay.

Hi everyone!! Hope all are warm or cool and staying strong.

Awesome day!! The weather was down right cold after 3 days of horrible heat. I went to sleep hot and woke up cold enough to shake!!! Yay!!!

I tried to take a nap but mom kept waking me up! I fell asleep before 2 am and that was without a pill at all!!! So happy.

Stay strong and keep fighting
Posted 5/6/2017 6:50 AM (GMT 0)
more drama. would enjoy a rest in a coffin about now!!! so it's a little morbid. @#!* it.
Posted 5/6/2017 1:28 PM (GMT 0)
Dawn,

Yes I understand, sometimes, I liked life better when I was suppressing. The veil of being in control sometimes is better.

But it is NOT. We need to do what is best for us.

so save your Money, keep looking, you never know what you will find.
Perhaps you can find an apart to share with a few people done the road.

There is always hope, because the only things consistent in life is change.


HT!!!!

Coffin, really?

How about a nice hammock in the mountains next to a calm, clear lake with a breeze blowing soft enough to keep the bugs away?

or---

A lovely sushi restaurant on the beach, with mango and seltzer over crushed ice? In this restaurant the chairs are lounge and the tables small under umbrellas. Feel the ocean breeze, taste the salt air?

So much better that a stuffy old funeral home. YUCK!

Peace and strength
Trina
Posted 5/6/2017 11:46 PM (GMT 0)
in a hammokck in the caribean drinking scotch and dry on a quiet beach. thx trendy. had some stinkin' thinkin'.
Posted 5/7/2017 5:03 PM (GMT 0)
Home yesterday after five days in MA. Lovely memorial service. I now have a large flag all folded. All belongings dealt with, moved, donated, or tossed. My Aunt inherited most of my grandmother's belongings. They both were curious world travelers and had disposable incomes. We unpacked truck this AM--some seriously amazing furniture and the usual crystal, china, silver expected from a woman of her age and station (grandmother.) Might have a *faberge*--I see trips to experts in my future. The coolest thing I found, however, is a lady's turn-of-the-century watch on a grosgrain ribbon, engraved with grandmother's initials. We did not find as many letters and photos as I had hoped--I think many were tossed when she moved out of her house--the basement had flooded many times and there was a serious issue with mold throughout. However--the up side is that with my inheritance, I can get a new-to-me car. Sorely needed--as my old car is falling to pieces. Back to work tomorrow. Be well,all.
Posted 5/7/2017 6:28 PM (GMT 0)
Yay Myself, I am going to start a new thread with your post...

Hugs, Karen...
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