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Posted 11/19/2019 7:54 PM (GMT 0)
Been posting in the anxiety and panic attack forum since 2013 I think. Not sure. Let me start with my depression. When I get here in the US I don’t have depression it’s just accumulated everyday. New country,new life. My late husband past away 2016. I got married again and have a baby 2019. My mom came here for almost 5months. in someways she help me. She’s old and can’t stand and she can’t walk longer. I have my son for almost 10months. I notice lately that’s my mood is way worst. My mom left September but I feel so terrible. I talked to my doctor but he put me into counseling first because might Help with what I feel. It’s been 3months I feel crapty. Went again to a new doctor because it’s a military thing that every 2years the doctors went to some places. Anyways, made an appointment for my PCM, told everything what I feel he prescribed me with Zoloft 50mg and been taking it for 2days now. I’m still breastfeeding my son. I didn’t know it will happen to me that I need medicine. Been avoiding to take and keep denying to myself that I am okay and will get better but the more I fight for what I feel the more it got worst. I am hoping and praying I will be better soon. I’m a stay at home mom, with no help with the baby. My husband is so great. He help with everything. I cried everyday, I want to get better. And appreciate what I have.

Thank you for reading my post.
Posted 11/19/2019 10:39 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Bik31,

First of all, welcome to the depression forum. Though I am sorry for what you are going through right now.

Did you tell the doctor you are breast feeding? Did he say that the Zoloft was safe? It can take up to eight weeks for the medication to reach full potential but there is a chance you will feel better way before that. If the doctor said it was safe, I would take them.

It is hard when you have to constantly change doctors. I think it takes awhile for the doctor patient relationship to build. Then to have to get another one, that can be unnerving. So I understand how you are feeling.

Are you still going to counseling? If you get a good counselor it can help so much. Another thing that helps is to get self help books on depression. I have read a lot of them and they always help some.

You could be going through depression due to having a child. Post partum I believe it is called. Your hormones can go whacko and you end up feeling depressed, but that usually goes away. Keep doing what you are doing. Maybe get some books. Keep posting too, it helps to write things out.

I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 11/20/2019 8:35 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Karen,

I’m on my 3rd day now with Zoloft. What I’m scared of taking this I will addicted on it and it’s hard for me to whine off. Especially i know my self when I get used to it it’s hard for me to let go. And been reading some comments or reviews about it. I am scared as well I will have seizures or what. My son is only 10months. I really want to be okay. I don’t want to depend on medication. But it’s hard for me right now especially I’m alone in the house with the baby, my husband is working at night. He get off at 12mn. I am scared to be alone. What happen to me no one will watch my son. I really hate this feeling that I can’t control my brain. Before the medicine, I feel like my brain will explode from over thinking, my neck is hurting like hell from over fatigue. Can’t figure out what hobby I want to occupy my time. I am not a typical housewife That clean the house or cook. Don’t get me wrong. Wish I could handle my brain.
Posted 11/20/2019 11:37 AM (GMT 0)
That's why the medication helps. I will be on medication for the rest of my life and I accept it. I try not to think about the future, just the moment I am in.

I took Zoloft before but it wasn't the med for me. I got real skinny on it. I tried many before I found what worked. I know it is probably the safest drug while breast feeding. Maybe after you can try something else. Take it one day at a time.

Can you get a dog to keep you company during the night while your husband is working? You would probably feel more safe with a dog. I have always had one.

I hope you feel better soon. Keep posting as it helps. Hang in there and try to take things one day at a time.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 11/20/2019 4:47 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you Karen, just had my walking exercise today for 20minutes. My son been crying for attention. I wanted to exercise for 1hr. I feel horrible right now, I wanted to cry. But seeing my son he needs me. When my heart is raising my bp is raising too is that normal?
Posted 11/20/2019 11:19 PM (GMT 0)
I am not sure, you would have to ask a doctor or somebody who knows. I would imagine if you are exercising and your heartrate goes up that the blood pressure would go up too. But I am just not sure.

Just keep doing what your son needs you to do and the rest should fall into place. I read your other post about wanting to go to work and drive again. I think that is awesome!

Hugs, Karen...
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