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Posted 5/23/2006 7:59 PM (GMT 0)
Hello friends,

 

My surgery date was set for yesterday at 7:30 a.m. I made the three hour ride down there. I was taken back to the surgical area to get ready. Now this is my fourth surgery with this Dr. and I trust him completely.

 

For some reason, that is beyond my understanding, when the dr came in the room to talk to me a minute, I told him I couldn't go through with the surgery. I don't understand this at all and it's got me so upset, I can't eat or sleep. I was dehydrated and emotionally not a good canidate for surgery anyway.

 

I have to have the surgery done in the next week if possible. My arm is in bad shape, and my surgeon is concerned the skin will break down around the top of the rod and create the need for redoing the entire procedure over.

My depression is so bad from many events going on in my home life, that I'm sure I wouldn't live through anoher surgery. That is silly and unfounded thinking on my part. This dr has pulled my through my other surgeries with no complications. I am horrified. I was absolutely petrified of going through this last surgery. I don't understand this myself. I have been on my antidepressant meds for a long time and they do a good job. I really think this is unrelated. I have to figure out what's going on in my mind. Any ideas??

 

Thanks for reading this. All of you are supportive and good people. Thanks for reading this.....Take Care......Connie confused

Posted 5/23/2006 8:30 PM (GMT 0)
It sounds to me like you had an anxiety attack. I get nervous (visible shaking) right before and right after a surgery. It sounds as though putting it off could cause more harm. I would suggest you talk to your doctor about it and try again. I take Xanax before so I don't freak out but please talk to your doc about it. Good luck to you.
Posted 5/23/2006 9:11 PM (GMT 0)
Connie,  I have to agree with blue.  You have broken all the pros and cons down logically in your post so you have put much thought into this.  Telling the doctor you didn't want to go through with the surgery that day certainly sounds as if you did indeed have an anxiety attack.  Many people who have to suffer with physical illnesses long term develop anxiety disorders and depression.  I would most defiantly call your physician and speak to them about this.  We are here for you and please keep us up dated...Take care
Posted 5/23/2006 9:20 PM (GMT 0)
Hi,

 

Thanks so much for your kind words and good insight. I thought it was a severe panice attack at first, also. I take 1mg xanax 4 x's a day. It wasn't like a panic attack though. I was calm and talked to my surgeon about not having the surgery on that day. The feeling of not surviving the surgery was more like a fact I had come to before I reached the hospital.

 

There have been a few reason I have thought about as being the culprit. I could be feeling like I'm playing the odds. Or maybe I'm just tired of tests. surgeries, bandages, and pains. However, no matter what it is, you're right. It's a fact that I have to have it done. My surgeon did spend time talking to me. The other times I just walked down to the OR room with someone they sent to get me. My dr. said he can arrange for me to be sedated and next time, so I won't be so alert in the OR and see everyone and hear all the instruments clattering as they are moved. I told him that bothered me. I will get the surgery done for sure. I have no choice. I called today to make another appt. and they were supposed to call me back. eyes   I will call again tomorrow.

 

Thanks again for your help. It makes a big difference when someone cares enough to help others......Take Care......Connie

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