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Posted 5/30/2006 5:52 PM (GMT 0)
Hi all Let me tell you a little about me. I am 31 I have a 11 month and 13 yr. old daughter. I also have a 9yr.old  and almost 18 yr. old step which neither lives with us. I am married to a great guy who is in the Army. We have been married for 5 yrs. out of those 5yrs he has been deployed twice and is leaving again in Oct.. We are stationed in Alaska. and home is Ga. Over the past Yr. I have had alot of things happened like death in the family, car accidents, lung cancer scares and so on. Now my dad is having a biopsy done for prostate cancer. Me and hubby have been fighting over supid suff in this last yr. We never faught we alway got along so great. Alot I think he is getting back into his I don't care stage to get ready for being over in Iraq again. The other times he didn't know he was going until 2 weeks before he left this time we knew as soon as we moved here which was Sept of last yr that they would deploy in Oct. of 2006. Some of it is I do think I am depressed about it all. I have a bad felling about this one. Last ones I didn't think about what if. Well I did a little but not like this time. this time it is like I am thinking about everything right down to the song that will be played. I just don't have a good feeling at all. It don't help being so far away from home either. Airplane tickets is not cheap. I was thinking about going home for that yr but then I would lose housing and the waiting list is a 2yr wait right now to get onpost and off post housing in Alaska is high. The Army would move me back home but when he came back would not move me back up here. Plus my daughter doesn't want to move back home and be close to her real dad as they don't get along to well.

I tend to cry over small smiple stuff. If I don't. I tend to snap alot a the kids and my husband. I have no engery no motivation. Don't care what I look like or what my house looks like.

I just started Wellburtin 150 a day

Me and DH are going on a long over due 7 day cruise on July 9. I hope that helps me out just to be able to relax with just him. no kids no worries. just sun fun beach and the sea.

  

 

Posted 5/30/2006 8:06 PM (GMT 0)
Hi armywife,  I wanted to welcome you to healing well forum.  We are happy to have you.  It sounds as if you have so much going on and are stressed.  One thing that really stood out is that you are worrying about things that havent even happened yet.  There is a point between being prepared for what may come and obsessing over it.  Have you spoken to your husband that you feel this way?  I am sure that he is stressed also with having to go back to Iraq for a second time but you should communicate your feelings to him about it if you havent already.  A vacation does sound like a good idea and tons of fun.  I hope you continue to post here...Take care.
Posted 5/30/2006 9:13 PM (GMT 0)
Just adding my welcome to the HW family. I foind it useful to take a break from life every so often to help keep things in perspective. I can only imagine what it is like for you or your husband to face redeployment to Iraq. Just wishing you both the best and Godspeed his return. Take care!
Posted 5/30/2006 9:13 PM (GMT 0)
Actuly I have a little. He don't have a good feeling about this trip either. This is actully his 3rd time back over their. His unit he is with is so messed up. It is pretty bad when the First SGT resigns cause the unit is to jacked up. This unit is a new unit it was just formed last yr. Everyone in it is stuck in it for 3yrs. Some of my problem is he is not the same person that he use to be. I don't expect him to be at all I know war changes ppl but I do expect him not to get worse as time goes on and try to improve. He is willing to go to anger manment and stress mangment classes which he needs. He just does stupid stuff that gets on my nerves or less say don't do little thing that get on my nerves. So I guess your right half it what is going on now and half is me looking in the long run. Yea I am probably driving my self nuts.

I try not to unload anymore than what he needs to fix right now one him. He can not change what is going to happen down the road. The only way he will not be going to Iraq is if heaven for bid my dad has cancer and we get compasion reassinment. He has enough of his own emotions to deal with without having to worry about me, not that he don't I am sure he does. I do have to be strong and I do know deap down I will make it threw it cause I love him. I have been threw worse. I was in an abuse relasionship emotional and phyical for 10yrs I made it threw that.

I do have alot on my plate and it makes it harder being so far away. The other times we was only 4 hrs drive from home so i went home ever weekend. I think that the distance and me being up here with no family is the main thing. I am a stay at home mom. I know 2 ppl up here and that is it.


I do think a vation will help us. we have never gotten away no more and 1 night by totaly by ouselfs since we have been married. We didn't even get a honymoon since we eloped right before he left for a feild training and our big wedding was on Sept. 15 2001 so the Army cut his leave short due to him being on stand by. he got From Sept 13 to 16 off.

Anyways now that I have wrote a book sorry.
Posted 5/31/2006 4:55 PM (GMT 0)
Your stress is perfectly understandable.  Please feel free to post here anytime we are always here.  Take care
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