Great News!

I finally went to see a therapist and we hit it off really well!  I don't know why I kept hitting such resistance against it.  Perhaps, it's because something inside me said it was something that I really needed and another part of me just doesn't want me to be happy and healthy.  Anywho, we have another appointment in another two weeks and it's made me much more aware that I'm not really the one with problems - it's everyone else around me!  (I don't mean for that to come off as rude or insensative, but we talked quite a bit about the crap that the last guy I dated said to me and is currently pulling and she assured me that he's the one who's ****ed up!) 

Plus, I've just booked a trip to Alaska!  I'm really excited about going.  I've never been and it just so happens that I have a few friends who live up there and they can't wait for me to come and visit - so I'm going!  Seize the Day!   

I hope you all find yourselves a little piece of sunshine today!  It's great to be alive! 

 

You are too funny Rianna! I've got folks looking for cute, single guys for me all of the world! It's quite funny! I'm glad to hear that you had a great time in Maui. I've always wanted to go to Hawaii and I was thinking that I could tag it onto my Alaska trip, but I just don't have the funds right now. Next time! :)

When I called to make one of my reservations - the one for a roundtrip train/motorcoach ride between Anchorage and Seward with a 6 hour cruise to the Kenai Fjords National Park, the woman I spoke with was so thrilled that I was traveling alone. She was just like "Gosh, that makes things really easy. You can do whatever you like, whenever you like, and you don't have to wait around for anyone else." And I said exactly. :)~

Sadsong,

 

I am so happy for you.  This is such a big step and you should be very proud of yourself.

Seeing a psychologist really helped me with my problems and it does make a massive difference if you like that person and feel you can open up to them.

I'm so pleased to hear about the trip that you've booked, it will be so good for you.

 

Take care

Victoria

 

P.s.Everyone liking my new colour and font (having a purple day!!!)

Golly, Elisha - I've always been envious of you! You're the strongest, most reasonable, most put together, always know exactly what to say person I know! :) I can't tell you how many times I've depended on your sound advice to get me to where I am today! I am forever in debted to you. And I mean that - the least I can do is share some pictures with ya! :)~ And thanks for the advice CounterClockwise - Sadsong does sound kinda dreary don't it? I'll have to think of a good new one! Maybe something like Lifeisgreat! :)~

I started to talk with my therapist about some of the familia stuff, but I'm just giving her background info right now concerning the places I've gone, the jobs I've had, my education, and the things I've done that have helped shape who I am today. We haven't even gotten into this century yet and I haven't even started filling her in on my two ex-finances! :) Ah, all of the colorful stories I have! :)~

When I've gone to see therapists in the past, it always seem to be for a short amount of time. And I used that time to ***** or moan about whatever that was troubling me and figure out ways to effectively deal with that situation. Deep down inside I know I have the capability to rationally and logically deal with whatever life throws at me, but it seems like sometimes I just shut down and can't work past it, and when I'm stuck, it really helps to have an objective sounding board where I can think through what's troubling me in a place where I feel comfortable doing so. It's amazing the effect my environment has on me!

As for the ex - yeah, I haven't got a frickin' clue as to why I was beating myself up over it! I think it, partly it has to do with the fact that I did say all of the right things, that a part of me did want it to work out, and a part of me is sad that it didn't. Another part of me kept trying to figure out what I could have done differently to make it work - but that line of thinking is even more wraped than his irrational behavior! I mean after I gave him all of his stuff back and after I told him that I wanted absolutely no contact with him, which meant no phone calls, no emails, and no swinging by my house, he's started emailing me again. I've just been deleting them without opening them, but it just so infuriating when I articulate my wishes and they are explicitly ignored. GRR!

As one of my friends has been know to say, "Men, can't live with 'em, and ya can't shoot 'em!" (To all the guys on the board - please understand that the above is meant in jest!) :) My best to all! :)