please help me feel "normal"

just need to know that there are others out there that go through the same nightmare i go through almost every day.people think i'm lazy but they just don't get it. i would give anything to be "happy".i don't have people that understand that i can talk to,which makes things just that much harder.would love to talk to others that know.

Hi faithlove, welcome to healing well we are happy to have you join us here.  I have had depression, anxiety/panic for many years also and understand the struggle that it takes to make it through the day and dealing with others who don’t quite get what you’re going though.  Every one of us here I'm sure have had someone at one time or another look at them as if there lazy or lack motivation when were actually dealing with depression and can’t help it.  Please know that there are many supportive people here that greatly understand just what you’re going through.  I hope you continue to post...Take care 

i understand you faithlove belive me, i know how it's a hard when people not understand what you feel. and i mast say somthimes peopple in this worls like say a galling words. and i get a advice on this forum, that i not need look attention that on speak about me, and this a a easy say and give that advize, but stil i can't not listen people, becouse i a human and for me important what people say about me.

Hi Faithlove,

Welcome to HW!

When I first started seeing my (now ex) partner, my depression was affecting me in very much this way, and the meds I was on helped lift the mood but almost seemed to exaccerbate the tiredness and inability to get on with things normally (which eventually led to a lowering of mood again!). While we were seeing each other I would try to get as much rest in advance as I could, just so that I could function ok while he was around. When he moved in I just couldn't keep up and I felt like such a fool. Finally I went back to my doc and poured my heart (and eyes!) out about what was going on. She realised before I did that the meds were not working and it was not just that I was taking ages to recover (bear in mind I'd been on the meds for a year by then!). Well, within days of coming off the old meds and starting on the new I felt *so* much better. So I guess what I'm saying is that I completely understand your frustration: this is such a feature of depression, and can be heightened by some meds with some people, and many people will never "get it" because, unless you have this condition, you just couldn't know what it feels like. BUT there is hope out there: came to me in the shape of citalopram/Celexa, but different meds work differently for different people, so it may take a bit of trial and error till you find the best ones for you.

I really hope you can get some relief from this.

Rosie x