Hi, I have not been around for a while, well mostly because of working fulltime and thinking that I was coping ok.
Lots of things in my life have started going wrong, they all seem to be happening all at once. Now all of a sudden it has hit me like a ton of bricks. I am not sleeping, I have a permanent lump in my throat, feel sickly and just keep bursting into tears. The thing is I only cry when no-one is around.
Yesterday I had to work somewhere I didn't know and I felt quite panicky, but once I got there and became familiar with the work etc, I relaxed a bit more. My confidence is slowly going though and I feel I can't talk to anyone because I am too embaressed to tell people that I am quite depressed.
Most of this has been building up since July, I have a husband who is really supportive, but I don't want to keep burdening all this on him.
I know I should visit my GP, but I feel like I just want to run away from everything and everyone. I don't want to be like this, do you think I might be on the verge of a breakdown?
I do think a lot of my problems are from things in the past as well as family (in-laws) problems which are ongoing.
When I am at work I am keeping busy and manage to hide my depression, but how long can I keep all of this up?
I just wish I knew what to do.
A very emotional djb