Jeez, this is depressing...

I feel like a tourist after reading through some of these posts. I'm still going to complain about myself though. Anyhow, I've had mild depression for a very long time...nothing very serious, I could handle it. A little over three weeks ago I quit smoking, I get extremely depressed. The bad kind where you can't get out of bed. I lost my job and I failed the classes I'm taking now at the university AND I dumped this really sweet girl I was dating for some reason I can't figure out. I started drinking by myself and then I started smoking again and I feel terrible about that but I'm sort of at the point where I don't care anymore. I've been told I should be getting up and doing things I would normally do, but jesus! Every time I would think about school work I would feel this horrible knife turning in my stomach and all sorts of self defeating thoughts would creep up on me. The same goes for just about anything besides sleeping. I've just got that terrible feeling that I'm never going to be more than I am right now. That I'm never going to be able to reach any goals I set for myself. Oooo...that sucks.

Oh, and I'm 25 and I live with my parents. I am pissed about that but am having trouble resolving it...see above.

Hi Notmyrealname,   Welcome to Healing Well.  I hope that you can find some support here. It sounds like you have been going through a really hard time and I really think that you should visit your doctor about your depression. You describe some very classic symptoms of depression and especially breaking up with your girlfriend....people suffering depression tend to push people away from them that they care about .    Visit your doctor and talk about how you are feeling and you can get some help for this.  Keep in touch with us.