another sad day

Why can't you go see the doctor? If it's a problem with money, there are ways around that -- free clinics, sliding fee scales, state assistance, etc. From what I have read in your posts, you really do need to see a doctor. I know it sounds overwhelming at this point, but you need to take care of yourself. This depression/anxiety will not just go away by itself. Believe me: Been there, done that, got the T-shirt, now I use it for a dust rag. Once your doctor understands what you are going through and what your symptoms are, she'll be in a much better position to help you. You don't have to keep suffering like this.

As for your husband, I'd say wait to get stabilized with new/different meds, and then have him go with you to the doctor/therapist. After all, he is your husband, and he is in this with you -- together. In sickness, and in health.

zinniagirl

JordaNZone i`m just so tired now have taken a few pills tonight and they are taking an effect on me already . i soon wiill be able to escape the crap going on here .i don`t really care anymore .hubby is pushing my daughter away and she is the only one who understands .I just feel there isn`t anything left here for me any more but on thr other hand i`m to frightened to leave .
Ihave been taking my meds a great lot of help they have been but i`m stuck with them fior a while until they run out..
well i`m out of here can hardly stay awake now.
RESTLESS