Lexapro

FINALLY I have something to reach for again when things were so far away from me...after months of feelin like I lost it and even thinkin well I'm just bi polar...the Dr's put me on Lexapro ... I can't say it's gonna work I've just started but just to know I will someday be half normal makes me happy..   does that sound silli...???...lol...

My days are filled with raisin my teenagers...tending to my dad (I just lost my mom in July from Breast Cancer)...running my husbands business along with the everday jobs a stay at home mom has to do...well I found myself in a whirl wind and I couldn't get out and it just kept sweepin me away from everyone and everything I loved...

I think this started with me a little after my mom died...I felt I had to be the rock for my dad and I stayed strong...but now....geez...I'm like a faucet thinkin about her all the time...I cried today...!!!...my son is in the 9th grade and they went of a trip and I didn't go...!!!...I would go everywhere with my kids...every trip...I felt so bad...I know maybe that sounds pathetic but that's how I Felt...I would get everyone off to school and hubby to work and soon as they left I would plop my tail on the couch and stare out the window hours would pass and I would have no idea where the time went...

I guess I've written all this just to ask ......

How does Lexapro work for you...???...

I hope it works...!!!...

As Always,

Have Faith

Hi Faith,

Your description of your life at the moment reminds me of how I was feeling about three months ago. I lost my sister just over a year ago and I think this triggered my depression. I also have a chronic illness (autoimmune hepatitis) and am reaching the retirement stage of my life which I find quite daunting. Like you, I would sit around doing nothing, crying at anything and everything.

Lexapro has been wonderful. I have been taking it for three months. No more tears. Nothing seems to worry or stress me. While others at work are complaining and stressing, I am now the one with the positive thoughts and comments.

I have also found the books "Beating the Blues" (Tanner & Ball) and "Taming the Black Dog" invaluable.

My doctor recommended an interactive internet program "MoodGym" which I have been working on and have also found this very beneficial.

I am very aware of thinking in a positive manner (I know that's easy while on the medication) and analysing my thoughts when I am down or upset. Working out why I am feeling this way and trying to change my thinking. Sometimes I find myself angry, analysing all the time, constantly thinking "Was that being positive?  Was that a negative thought?etc" but I'm sure it's my way of beating this depression.  I was always a calm, easy going person and friends and family are very surprised to learn of my depression.

I'm just hoping that when I am done with Lexapro I can cope as weel as I am coping now. My doctor wants me to continue taking it until June. (That will be six months) then gradually wean myself off).

Good luck and take care.
Marg