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Posted 6/22/2007 4:23 AM (GMT 0)
I have been depressed for years, but have only been able to put my pride aside this past year and get help. I can't stop crying. I'm always crying. Feeling sorry for myself. Wondering how I'm going to get through all the hours in the day, all the days in the years....I've tried so many things to try and lift myself out of this but just can't seem to do it. Everyone in my family has the attitude that you can just "get over it" if you just think positive. I just feel, stagnant, hopeless, unmotivated, and so sad, all the time. I feel pathetic and incompetent even though I know I'm not. I know there are others out there..I can't seem to move forward.
I was on Celexa for about 5 months and to my surprise, I didn't cry once in those 5 months. However, I felt extremely "flat" and unemotional. Health insurance ran out, now I'm wondering what to do.
I read about SAM-E and St. John's Wort for treating depression. Does anyone know about these?
Posted 6/22/2007 11:44 AM (GMT 0)
Emma
Welcome to the forum,I am very glad that you found us and I am sure you will find the support that you are looking for.
I know all about the crying,in fact as I sit here this morning my eyes are so swollen from the dam that broke last night that I look awful.

I have heard good things about SAM-E and St. Johns Wort,but I have never taken them myself.
I do have a suggestion though. Here in the US (Not sure where you are) alot of our hospitals have financial aid programs. If you have a county hospital near you that has a pharmacy I am willing to bet they have one.
You just need to go in and give them the proper info (I would call first) and you usually meet with a financial aid Rep. If you qualify then you can get your services for a very low fee or even free.



Shy
Posted 6/22/2007 6:31 PM (GMT 0)

Hi emma antd welcome to Healingwell!

Im willing to bet that you are not from the UK, given the way you talk about health insurance, so I am probably not in the best position to help on that score. I have, however, taken St Johns Wort before and found that it did very little for me. This doesnt mean that it won't work for you but this is my experience of it.

I hope this helps

Darren

Posted 6/22/2007 11:05 PM (GMT 0)
sad  Welcome to the forum~

I know how you feel as far as all the feelings that you are experiencing.  It is an awful feeling and you do indeed wonder how you are going to get through another day.  I have no remedy to this as I go day to day wondering if i can do it just one more day.  the only thing that gets me by is the one thing I look forward to in my life i would have to do without!!!  Im not sure if you have anyone or anything that gives you incentive to go just another day but that is what I have.

 

Even after 22 years, I still have days that i struggle with, and i mean struggle.  I thank god everyday that I do have something in my life that sustains me.

 

As far as St Johns Wort, that is a natural herb so you might want to check out what it is derived from.  SAMe, I have heard good and bad.  I tend to stay away from over the counter things because of the severity of my depression.  I have a hard enough time managing my depression with meds that are proven to "work" rather than try something that may not work.

 

Again, welcome and good luck in your search and know that there are many people here that really care about each other.

Posted 6/23/2007 2:39 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks you guys! I really appreciate the help and the kind words....I'm so sick of feeling like this I wish I could just wipe it out completely. I mean, what causes it, really? It's so frustrating. I remember thinking when I was about 13, "oh, someday I'll get to die, and that will be a great day". And honestly, I have had a pretty darn good life, with loving supportive parents, friends and (relatively) good health. Why was I thinking like that? And ever since then, it's gotten progressively worse. Maybe some hormonal/chemical change at that time? I mean, besides puberty? Who knows. I'm 24/F and this has just become a major stumbling block. But it gives me some comfort that this forum is here....Thanks again.
-Emma
Posted 6/23/2007 4:10 AM (GMT 0)
Try Rhodiola Rosea. It's the best thing I've ever tried! Not only improves mood but increases energy and reduces feelings of stress. Who couldn't do with more energy and less stress? :)
Posted 6/23/2007 11:52 AM (GMT 0)
You are so welcome.
It is so frustrating when depression hits at such an early age.

I was 12 when I knew something was really wrong,I do think that I had it alot younger when I think back.


stay strong

Shy
Posted 6/24/2007 10:09 PM (GMT 0)
St. John's Work did not work for me, and SAMe is expensive, I keep saying I will try it when I can afford it but that hasnt happened yet. I would like to try Rhodiola Rosea like Sunnivara suggested, that is one I have never even heard of... I wonder if it comes in pill form or what.
I have the same insurance issues. I do know that in Los Angeles county where I live there are several different financial aid programs for health care, but what I have found in my areas anyway is that the psych Dr.s are really lame, disinterested, uncaring people. But that doesnt mean you will have the same experience so I would still encourage you to try... I intend to try again soon, just in case someting has changed.

take care....
Posted 6/24/2007 10:36 PM (GMT 0)
emma,
I can identify with losing insurance, I recently lost my job of almost 10 years, and couldn't keep up with the Cobra insurance payments. My therapist gave me some paperwork for an organization called the Free Medicine Foundation. / www.FreeMedicineFoundation.com I am currently filling out the paperwork. It promises 3 months of all your meds for a $5.00 processing fee, if you qualify. They send the meds to your MD.
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