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just wanted to to say hello and im new the this form ...i suffer major depression for a life time it seems ...had a few set backs threw my passed...seems like i get one step ahead at times then i go back 2 steps...i spend hours crying in my bedroom it seems to be my only safe zone for me...i sometimes come out of it after many hours of crying...and try my best to get motivated again...im married for over 26 years ...im not sure my husband really understands depression...at times he trys to be supportive...or just tells me to stop crying ...which ****** me off at times ....i wish he would understand it a bit more ...you cant just turn of the tears its not a tap...im on many different medications for depression and anxiety..and many times i get so low i just wish i would never wake up again...and many thoughts of taking pills ...i sometimes take a few extra just to calm myself down till i come to my senses again...i have withdrawn from many friends and family and activities i once enjoyed...i feel im a burden to them all so i keep it to my self..i hope to meet some people on this form that have the same thoughts and might understand me ...maybe i could help someone too take care

Hello Rainbow,
Welcome to Healing Well. I have Depression and Anxiety too. 24 years ago I had my first bout of depression and I did very well with an old trycyclic med but in 2005 it petered out for me. I was taking Vicodin at the time and I just had a major melt down.
I too tried many meds and finally Cymbalta seems to be holding me but I take a large dose, 120 MG per day.
I also was in therapy for 6 months and saw my therapist weekly, then every other week and now on an as needed basis. I see my P-doc ever 2 months now.
Just saw her today and I have fought long and hard since Sept of 2005 to get to where I am today.
I have a safe place, my house, but especially my computer room. Here I can talk to people as someone is always online.
You have come to the right place, so please let us help you.
Tell us what meds your taking, and are you seeing a therapist now?
You will find many members here willing to support and advice you. We know where your coming from and what you are going through.
Please don't take more of your med than prescribed as I am sure you know that is dangerous. I know your in pain, but that is not the answer.
Many gentle hugs to you.

Hi there and welcome to HealingWell!
I hope that you find all the support you need here. This is quite a big forum with lots of people with lots of different experiences and opinions. But we are all respectful of everyone else and that is a big bonus for us over some other websites I have seen. You might want to check out the resource centre for depression if you have an unanswered question.
Be cool
Darren

Dear Rainbow,
I am so happy that you love the site. You are right, members post from their hearts and their souls. They post the bad times and celebrate and share the good times. The give so much to each other that reading the posts is what gives us all the strength and support we so badly need.
Please stay with us and keep posting.
Many hugs.

shynSassy
thank you so much for the warm welcomes ...I really feel this might help me also ...as my hubby trys but doesnt understand alot about feelings as he keeps his own bottled up inside ...so it somtimes hard to express Im looking forward to this site not only to vent but maybee i can help others too

Hi,
I think you have a great attitude and I really hope that you will fnd the support you need as well as having an opportunity to help others. Sometimes helping someone else can assist you in your personal fights as well.
As for the blue word, dont sweat! We have all done it! (Including me! ) Its just unusual for HEalingwell to not filter it out automatically.
Best Wishes
Darren