Feeling isolated and alone although I'm surrounded by people, since I'm at a wireless hub. Funny, how even though I can be surrounded by others I still feel separated and apart from everyone else. I have no idea what is going on in these people's lives, but to me it seems that their lives must be better than mine. Strange, eh? Especially, since that may not be the case at all. It's just part of the pain and misery I put myself through.
I was suppose to go out to dinner with a friend of mine the other night, but I completely blew her off. She called and left messages for me two nights in a row, but I never picked up the phone. The day before a different friend of mine was suppose to call so we could make arrangements to go to the beach this weekend, but she never called. So, I didn't feel like hanging out with anyone and didn't leave the house for the past two days. Pretty lame excuse, but I did get a lot of reading in, watched a few movies, washed my dishes, did some gardening and just hung out and relaxed. And now, I'm washing my laundry so at least I was a bit productive. I just wish I didn't get so down on the weekends when my plans fall through.