How to go about life

Hello everyone. I'm at a point in my life where I feel so lost and disconected. I have a wonderful wife. We have been married 3 years.Growing up I was pretty much a loner. I didn't care about school, which I really regret now. I was the black sheep. I know I could have done better, I just chose not to. I didn't have any true friends, just people to hang out with. My depression took me for a ride about a month ago. I really don't remember much of what happened in the whole month of October. What I can remember is I told my wife I wanted a divorce, was gonna sell the house, and I guess just start over. Thats not what I wanted at all. My wife had moved out, and the depression was just eating me up. It was such a dark place. My wife talked me into checking into the hospital. While there my Dr changed my meds and I just had time to think about my life. Had my wife not come over I would not be here today. Well I'm proud to say that has all changed. My mood is better and stable, my wife moved back home. We have alot to work on. I have been in a outpatient program scince discharge from the hospital. It has been great there. I'm supposed to get dicharged from there on friday. My bigest problem now is going and finding true friends. I feel my wife and I need more than just each other. Neither one us has had true friends. We don't know how to go about meeting new people. Neither one of drinks so the whole bar scene is a dead issue. I'm glad I've found HW because its good to read others experiences. It's nice not to be judged or criticized. Any suggestions would be great. Sorry to ramble on, but it feels good to get it out. Thanks, Allmixedup

Allmixed up

You have been through so much,and I need to tell you that I am not sure that anyone here can give you anymore advice than what you have already done. Thank God for your wife,seeing the signs and knowing that you needed help. You reaching out and getting that help is the biggest step that anyone can take.
You just need to take things one day at a time. You have figured out what is important to you and you know that you have a disease,that is huge!

Stay strong,and keep us posted.

Shy

Allmixedup...kudos for realizing that life just somehow caught up with you. I've been there and try not to go there anymore. A lot of it is just thinking of it as a new lease on life...the second part of your journey. I go to two different groups, one being Al-anon as I grew up w/ alcoholics and married a man who has to drink to socialize. His mother is also one. So I am working on my self. I also go to another group for past abuse. Another way I am working on myself. Like others have said, volunteer, join a group you would enjoy and think of life as a journey. Everyday won't always be easy but work on yourself one day at a time. I have been depressed most of my life and although I don't always show my true colors to everyone, I do talk to ppl, meet new ppl cuz it feels goot. We may have not connection other than we are mothers,ect. At first I felt bad when ppl wouldn't give me attention, or they said what was on their mind but I am getting to a place where I'd rather have that than have someone talk behind my back(most of my HS days and my mom-n-law does this) than to be the latter. Think of it as baby steps. It doesn't come overnite. Peace. Kota/Nicole

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