Life -

xx I'm working on it.
thanks. mb

Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/15/2007 1:14:30 PM (GMT-7)

Thank-you Kitt. I felt too vulnerable - was afraid of how I sounded, and stuff so deleted it. I just needed to get it out of my system, but it was hard to let it stand you know? Anyway, I know people here care and I thank-you for the gentle hugs. That's just what I need right now.

Right now, we are still in the States staying with hubbie's contacts. It's hard because I don't fit in. My h loves the people here and I can't really express discontent without him trying to convince me how wonderful it is here. So I feel really isolated and lonely. Usually he's the one person who is there for me to pour out my heart too. But not here. Sometimes it seems when we need peopel the most, is when we have to stand on our own. I read here a lot, and it keeps me company. We'll hopefully go home in a couple weeks and then maybe I'll start feeling better again. EVen if it is to a non-ideal house, at least I'll have my own space and won't have to pretend I'm happy when I'm not so much.

THanks for caring.

Embers

Hi Carla,

I read your post here and I just wanted to say how nice it was to feel someone encouraging me as you did. Thanks for the pick-me-up! It was like getting a hug.

I just wrote on another thread that my h has decided it is time to go home in a couple weeks, so I am already feeling better. Finally, there is an end in sight!

So I only have 2 or 3 more weeks to try to fill until I can get a bit of a routine going again hopefully when we go home. We will return to a cramped house with boxes piled in the ktichen and living room, but at least it will be our own space - even it if is a cluttered one. :0)

Thank-you for your suggestions. You are right - that going for walks is helpful. That has been the best thing for me here. I do go out several times a week walking - so at least I keep moving.

I'm sure I will continue to hang around the forums when I am back home. I like it here. Thanks for helping me to feel less alone right now. It's just been a hard couple of months for so many reasons. My h is goign in a totally new direction with his business and his new friends and I've been feeling left out and left behind. It's not his fault. He just hasn't been able to understand how I have been feeling here and thinks it's all in my head re. me not fitting in and stuff. He can't see what I am trying to say, and I've just had to accept that, but it does hurt. But maybe when we get back home I'll find somewhere to volunteer or something just for me. And I'll hopefully get some decent rest again so I can enjoy life better again.

Hope you have a good day today, manyembers

Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/16/2007 8:59:36 PM (GMT-7)

manyembers,

Thanks for letting me know that I helped in some small way.  Please stay in touch and let us know when you are going home and please do remain a member when you get back home.  I'm glad you are getting to go home soon.  I want you to be happy again.

Many Big Hugs!

Carla