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Posted 12/18/2007 7:24 PM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone, hope everyone is feeling okay today.

Hey Karen,I'm glad to hear you are getting some sunshine! We have lots here still mixed with rainy grey days. I don't know what it's like today because I have not peaked out of my dark curtains. I hope to get to the post office today to mail a package to a friend. The only thing is I really wanted to send her some peppermint tea and that store is only in driving distance. So don't know if I will just get the package in the mail already or keep waiting on the tea. I've been trying to get things together for about 4 weeks now and kind of just want to get it in the mail.

Do you have a nice doctor? I don't like doc. appt's. either but I really like my doc. He's from England and he's way different from most docs. I have had or heard about. He is very thorough, listens well, and is incredibly compassionate. I actually look forward to my appt.s because I know I will feel like someone cares and feel encouraged that he takes me seriously. With so many hard to explain symptoms it is reassuring to have a doc. that listens and takes me seriously.

Well, I think I just needed to hear that my feelings weren't unreasonable re. the situation here. It just bothers me when people ignore me - I guess I find it rude when there are 2 people in the room and only one is spoken to - that happens with the guy a fair bit. Just because I am soft spoken doesn't mean I don't have a brain you know? lol. Yes, you can be certain I am counting the days until we go home. I was excited because I thought it was only about two weeks, but for some reason h wants to stay here for part of early Jan. too. Of course I objected!!! We'll see what happens. I would suggest we leave the end of Dec. except I expect the planes will be quite full and very fragranced - so that would not make for a very comfortable flight.

I wonder if I just give myself pep talks on how this is h's weakness and how I can expect to 'lose him' for awhile when we travel but all will be fine after the fact if I still start being less perturbed. In all honesty, I AM chomping at the bit!! I dared to try and express a few things to him again, but got the same kind of response - it's always just about me - never them. They didn't even say hello to me until h told them I was feeling hurt because when they come over I felt hurt by their not acknowledging me. Wierd, eh. I mean, it's just normal for me that when someone you are visiting walks in the room you say hello to them. I am trying not to be angry. It would be easier if I thought they were rude people, but instead I just feel like they must have misjudged me or something. I don't know. I will stop rambling about this. I guess I will take a good long walk today which always helps the time to pass and helps me feel better too.

I am hoping to look that artist up tonight actually - something interesting to do while I pass the time this evening. Thanks for reminding me.

THat is is sooo sweet that you've been practicing writing his last name. Ahhhh! :-) I think it is normal to be getting nervous some, because this is something new and it will be a change. But you are doing just fine. yeah

Well, that's all for now. Hope you have a good day with your appt.s and sunshine, and some time to do something you enjoy today too.

love, Embers

Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/21/2007 9:11:17 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 12/19/2007 12:55 AM (GMT 0)
Karen,

When you get a second, could you let me know the name of that nature artist again? I tried going thorugh the posts but can't find where you posted him anymore. confused

Thanks, ttfn, Embers
Posted 12/19/2007 2:17 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Embers,
The artist name is Kevin Daniels. I haven't looked him up on the internet but I think he would be there, we have quite a few of his prints.

John wanted me to ask you what you think of the Detroit Red Wings. We are from MIchigan and he watches them play hockey all of the time.

I will be happy for you when you get back home. I know you will be so much happier there. I know that you will still be posting on the forum so I will still be able to talk to you. I would be sad if you weren't. You have the perfect right to feel the way you do. I would be so uncomfortable in your situation. Especially when people don't feel I am worthy to talk to. But actually you handle it very well. I guess you just go with the flow until you can leave. Then you will have your life back.

We went to the county building to get our marraige liscence applied for. We will have it on Friday. We also picked out wedding bands and they will be ready Friday morning. And we talked to my cousin (he is a minister) and we are getting married Friday morning at 10:00. Can you believe that? We will do it in blue jeans. I am still nervous. And this is as casual as it gets. I picked out a gold wedding band with three little diamonds in it. It is simple but pretty. When I got married before I had white gold, (my husband died of cancer, so I am a widow, though not for long)this time I wanted yellow. I can't believe that this is happening. And it is special that my cousin is preforming the ceremony.

I think that you do very well at giving yourself pep talks now. You have such a good additude about everything. I don't think that this can bother you any more than it already has. It is just a matter of time now. You stay busy so it will go by fast I am sure. I know that you take walks and go places and love to read, what ever that it takes. You will make it.

I have been messing with a cell phone for an hour with an operator. Or what ever you would call it. It doesn't have service where we live. We have to go atleast ten miles to get it to work. I think we are going to just take it back. They keep telling me to give it another 24 hours but I am done with that. I have tried the same thing four times and that is three times too many. Don't I sound tough? Yeah right.

I spose that I will close here and check out the fibro forum for a bit. I have been gone most of the day, so I haven't been on.

I wish for you a wonderful comfortable evening free of pain and fatigue.

Love and Hugs,
Karen
Posted 12/20/2007 7:14 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Karen,

How are you doing? Your wedding is almost here yeah Are you feeling more peaceful or nervous or excited? Maybe lots of things at once? Anyway, it's a wonderful event and you'll be a beautiful bride I'm sure - blue jeans and all!! That is so cool that your cousin will be able to marry you.

I was in bed all day. I don't know if it was the flu or just all the bad stuff I've been eating...but tonight is the first I've eaten all day. I feel somewhat better now. But have not been on the net much for that reason.

Well, as for hockey, I don't have any opinions anymore as I havn't followed it regularly in years. I guess for a Canuck I am not very up to date on our national sport. lol.

H and i actually really like watching soccer together though! We discovered it this summer. Didn't have cable so it was hard to find shows we both liked to watch together. One day I strolled in the tv room and sat beside him and after a few minutes I realized I was really enjoying the soccer match he was watching. And that was that. yeah

H and I had a good talk last night so I am feeling like a load is lifted. He finally, and I mean finally validated some things re. what I've shared here. We met with another couple tonight and they were so warm. It was really good for me to be around people I clicked with like that. I wasn't sure I'd go cuz I was still feeling like staying in bed, but glad now that I went. It felt good to feel like I had an identity again - i.e. was welcomed in the conversation - a world of difference from the other situation. So that felt good.

I looked up Kevin Daniels. Some sites have his prints for sale. I really like his style. It has a real warmth to it and his paintings look like photos! I was impressed.

That cell phone you got sounds very frustrating!! Yikes. I hope you can take it back or find a way for it to work. Doesn't sound fun.

I am not sure which day of the week it is. I think it is Thursday as I write this - Thursday am going on Thursday day. Anyway, look forward to sharing more another time. I will get myself to bed soon.

I also wish for you a wonderful comfortable day free of pain and fatigue.

love and hugs, Embers
Posted 12/20/2007 2:07 PM (GMT 0)

Hi Embers,

I am so happy that you got to go out with another couple so h could see the difference in how you were able to interact with them apposed to the people that you are living with.  Maybe now he will understand how it hurts you to be snubbed (?).  Looking for the right word.  You are such a special person and don't deserve to be treated that way by his friends.  And if they were real friends they wouldn't treat his wife that way.  There is so much I don't understand, but that is the way I see it.

Isn't Kevin Daniel great.  I had put an "s" on the end of his name and I guess there isn't one.  I did'nt see some of his prints.  He has some with water scenes and canoes.  It usually looks like sunset.  The colors are magnificent.  But I like his wolves the best and the deer.  There is one with a black wolf, that is one of my favorites.  John puts them in barnwood frames and they look even better.  We might have a chance to sell some for Christmastiime.  The lady where we got the paperwork for the marraige liscense wants to see some.  So I am going to take pictures of them so she can see what they look like.

You have become my special forum friend, who knows one day maybe our paths will cross.  This is like having a pen pal, I hope that the forum moderators don't mind how much we write.  It is therapeudic for our depression so they probably think it is good.  I feel like I know you in a sense.  I really enjoy our conversations.  If I could figure out the chat room maybe one day, if our time coordinates we could go there.  I have never been in one so I don't know if I could do it right.  This is fine for now, I always look forward to your posts.

I am so glad you are feeling better, I am sure once you get back on your proper diet that you will feel much better.  I think I will start a new thread on the fibro forum.  Something about how we got diagnosed.  Mine was with tenderpoints.  For this forum, I have suffered with depression for about 25 years.  This is the best I have felt in all that time and I think the forum has a lot to do with it.  Unless it is a new med I have been taking called abilify.  Also risperdol.  It helps with obsessive thinking, kind of gives you your objectivity back.  It is so hard to be objective when you are depressed.

I do feel at peace with what we are doing.  I will feel like I belong somewhere now.  I still had feeling of purpose because John is so attentive to me and my feelings.  More than my late husband was.  He was possessive and jealous.  I don't know how I lived with it so long, but I did.  I was a good wife and I have no doubt about that.  Even to the end with his lung cancer, I was there for him and did everything possible to make him comfortable.  So I have no guilty feelings about that relationship.  I put up with more than most women would and made that extra effort especially at the end.  John came up for the last three months and helped me.  I was so happy because I was getting really run down healthwise and could barely do it.  Isn't it strange how that worked out?  We had been friends for a long time and got along so well.  I guess us getting together was meant to be.

Today I am going to run to town and go to a sporting good store and pick up John's Christmas and birthday presents.  I think I can find a couple other items for son and dil.  Wanted to get them one more gift.  We are lucky that we have money this year for Christmas.  It isn't always like that  Sometimes we can't get anything, so the people who come on the forum who are depressed for the holidays I can totally relate to that.  Christmas has lost the true meaning and is so comercialized.  I can understand why others get so depressed, the items for kids are way too expensive.  And you feel obligated to give to everybody you know and that just isn't possible.  They should put way more emphasis on spending time together with family and just feeling at peace with the true meaning of the holiday.  More nativity scenes and less plastic santas.

I will end here, I want to get ready to go shopping or I wont go.  This is the last chance I have to get John something for his birthday.  Though he insists he doesn't want anything, I know better.  And wouldn't feel right if I didn't get him something.

Luv and Hugs to you Ember,

I enjoy reading your posts so much that it makes my day.

Karen

Posted 12/21/2007 2:00 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Karen,

I enjoyed your note. Yes, I look so forward to hearing from you too! I wish I had more energy to write you back, but I am feeling a bit wobbly and foggy and jello-like. :0) I think I must have a bug of some kind or something. But I wanted to make sure I popped by before it was too late to send you a bouquet of roses (cyber space ones - I wish I had an emoticon but I don't). But sending cyber roses nonetheless. yeah Tomorrow you will be married, and I can hardly wait to hear about how things go. I prayed for you today that the Lord would fill your wedding and marriage with joy and ...I can't remember what else I prayed!! But just know youa re in my prayers for you to have a very blessed special day and future with John. I am so happy for you. You deserve to have a man that loves you and treats you well. I have no doubt you were a loyal wife to your first husband. And I have no doubt you will be a wonderful wife to John too, but am also very happy to hear that he really treats you so good.

Well, I'm too pooped to write much more, but will check in soon as usual.

love and best wishes for a beautiful wedding day! your forum buddy, Kimberly (Embers)

P.S. You know I just remembered the other day, I had a couple other friends I met on the net who would call me "Kimbers" because it reminded them of "embers" and they thought it suited me. I hadn't even thought of that until just the other day.
Posted 12/21/2007 3:18 AM (GMT 0)

Thank you Embers, you are so sweet.  This will probably be the last time I write as a single woman.  Actually a widow.  I don't really like that word for some reason.  So I am tickled to be getting a new last name and the whole shot. yeah

It is less than 12 hours away.  Butterflies are happening now.

I am so glad I am excited because it makes me feel young again.  I am 49.  I feel like 29  right now.  That is soooo cooool.

I hope that you feel better soon.  I remember the last time that you posted you weren't feeling all that good either.  I bet when you get back home that you will start feeling better.  How much longer is it?  about a week, or did h want to stay into January?  I wonder if you did pick up a bug?  The way the weather has been, warmer, there are a lot of bugs going around here.  John's son has been kind of sick.  That is hard with the new baby.  I got a flu shot so I have been lucky so far.  Sometimes I will pick something up in the spring.  That is always a bummer.

I will close here, I hope that this finds you well.

Hugs,

Karen

Posted 12/21/2007 9:30 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Karen,

I just wanted to wish you and John all the luck in the world today, i hope you both have a wonderful day, i'm sure you will. Lots of good wishes now and always, love Gillian x
Posted 12/21/2007 9:35 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Embers,

I hope you are feeling better today. I just wanted to wish you a lovely christmas and an even better new year! Best wishes Gillian x
Posted 12/21/2007 12:02 PM (GMT 0)
Embers

I think it would be alot better for you to not copy/paste the emails. I am afraid that it might confuse the other members as they are not going to know how to respond...


Thanks!
Posted 12/21/2007 4:14 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Karen - guess you are a married woman now! We are all very happy for you and I'm sure you are a radiant bride. I'll write more later today. Take whatever time you need to respond as I know this is a special day for you and John. I will also try to write more soon. Embers

Hi Gillcom. Thanks for the best wishes. I also wish you a wonderful season of joy and peace and hope you have a great new year! Yes, I'm feeling somewhat better today. Thanks for asking. I hope you are feeling well today too! have a great day, Embers

Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/21/2007 9:33:42 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 12/21/2007 4:16 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Shynsassy,

Okay. Thanks for letting me know. I went ahead and deleted the copy and paste on this thread.

Sorry for the mistake. -manyembers

Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/21/2007 9:20:49 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 12/21/2007 4:44 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Embers,

Thanks, me and my boys are spending christmas at my parents house and we are going to stay over, which will be good, cause this is my first christmas since me and my husband separated. My husband is taking me and the boys into Glasgow on christmas eve, it's something we have always done since we got married, so that will be good to keep that tradition going. Stephen (hubby) and his partner were visiting yesterday and have asked me and the boys over on the 27th for dinner, so i'm thinking what the best thing to do is. Stephen is working all over the holidays (he is a nurse) so thats something, at least i wont be pinning thinking he is spending christmas day with his partner, while i'm with the boys on my own, although i wont be, but you kind of know what i mean. Anyway glad your feeling slightly better, Gillian
Posted 12/21/2007 7:36 PM (GMT 0)

Hi there you guys,

I hope that you both are having a good day.  As I am sure you know my day has been magnificant.  I am starting to unwind now.  Hubby is laying down, he is tired so I thought I would write some since I can be lazy today and have some extra time.  What a way to spend a honeymoon, right?  That is okay.  I like chatting with my fingertip friends.  Marlee on the fibro forum refered to us as fingertip friends and I thought that was kind of a catchy phrase.

The weather is a little dreary today, it has been on the vurge of rain all day.  The dampness makes me ache so bad.  The days of no sunshine can be depressing.   I am lucky to have reasons to be in good spirits.  I hope that this continues.  Luckily the temperatures have been somewhat warm.  Yesterday it felt like a thaw.  Everything was dripping and we lost a lot of snow.  That takes a load off my mind and off of the rooves and greenhouses.  This kind of weather reminds me of planting seeds for the garden, though it is way too early.  That always breaks up the long winter some.  Getting seeds planted for spring.  Do either of you garden?  Embers I know that you have had to move a lot but what about this year?  Do you think you will be moving when you get back to Canada?  I love to watch things grow.

I will close here, will probably be back later.

Hugs,

Karen

Posted 12/21/2007 9:42 PM (GMT 0)
Hi MRS!!

Glad to hear everything went well.

Yes i do garden but not complicated things, i like my plants and shrubs and keeping it all nice and neat. I love spring and summer everything is so colourful. I miss it in the winter and i also miss talking to the neighbours, you hardly see anybody in the winter, they all come home from work and hideout away from the cold, lol.

Well i'll go now now and i hope you have a wonderful time on the rest of your wedding day, Gillian
Posted 12/22/2007 6:46 AM (GMT 0)
Helloooo ladies!

Mrs. Karen forum buddy - I am glad you are so happy!!! I hope you were able to get your shopping done the other day, and that you can surprise John with his birthday gift. I know what you mean - my h and I ALWAYS set a budget for holidays and he ALWAYS went over but not me. lol! So then he'd give me wonderful gifts and I'd give him 'in budget' gifts. So this year for his birthday last month I scrapped the budget and just bought him whatever I wanted. It was a lot more fun and he lvoed his gifts.

Gill, I'm glad you and yoru boys can spend Christmas with your parents. It's good to have family, isn't it. That's nice that you garden some. I think it is a therapeutic sort of thing, and being I don't do it, I appreciate the properties that do. It gives a lift to see.

No Karen, no gardening for me this year either. Yes, we'll be moving again. 99.999999 % sure of that. Our lease is up in April and this place is not ideal at all except for the kindness of the landlords.

Gill, did you look up the artist Karen was talking about named Kevin Daniel? He does beautiful stuff. Karen, his prints in barnwood frame would be just perfect! I can totally picture that!

I am wondering the same thing - if it's okay to keep posting here just about our daily lives and getting to know each other. I have to say it has been like a life line for me these past weeks and definitely gives a lift from teh blues. I guess the mods. will tell us if this is appropriate for this particular forum.

As for me, well...I'm still feeling crappy, but not as crappy. It seems as long as I don't eat and just sleep a lot, I'm not too bad. ha! I'm taking this herbal thing the lady here recommended. I noticed almost an immediate difference in how my stomach felt, but I guess I need to keep taking it. Sigh. Btw, she's alright - it's another couple that I have felt the strangeness with, but don't see them that much anymore. Kind of just decided I need to stop reaching out becuase it just sets me up to feel more rejection. So am just trying to let them be who they are and stepping back from it now that I can.

My h booked our tickets home and then the people we are staying with told us if we had chosen a different day we probably could have saved around $200. bummer! Oh well. At least we are going home!!! Won't be long now.

I am still enjoying my midnight tv oldies - although Three's Company was a bit too hyper for me tonight. Gets on my nerves to watch people quarreling over stupid things - I like to laugh, but just find that too much noise after awhile is over the top. On a more peaceful note, I went for a walk with h tonight. It is more like summer here than winter! I am told this is the warmest winter they ever had. I can still wear a fall coat most days, but if I didn't have these health issues, just a sweat shirt would probably do. I find I get cold easily so I bundle up way more than most folks.

I'm sorry I'm all over the place. I am trying to reply to todays posts and the one I hadn't energy to respond to a few days ago - re. the post you wrote Karen, that I said I'd wished I had the energy to respond to at the time, but didn't. So a few days late, but to respond to it further, just wanted to say that I am happy for you that you feel a sense of belonging with John with being married. I think you and I are very similar and I feel like I know you too, and what I was going to say also is that this is just another way we are similar as I too really cherish feeling I belong. But still hope to have kids, because even though I'm married to a great guy, I still long for a family with kids. I know you have John's family and Gill has her boys, but me, besides the hubby I don't really have 'family.' So we'll just see what the future holds. It's a new year, with new hope for us all.

Hope everyone has a good rest tonight and has all their shopping done or near done. :0)

Oh wait! Karen, you also wrote about Christmas being too commericialized. Is it bad where you are that way too Gill? I find sometimes that the holidays sometimes are not what we hope for but I like to think that we can choose to celebrate in spite of the difficulties and sorrows - though I know for some, it's a lot more difficult than others. My point is, that for many years I tried to make it the perfect day, but I'm learning that just like every other day of the year, it's really what we make it to a big degree. . But really, since feeling the depression since this past summer, this is a principle I am applying to every day now. But I digress.. Anyway, I think a lot of people are trying to redefine this holiday to give it meaning apart from all the commercialism. I say Good for them!

love and hugs, Embers

Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/21/2007 11:49:26 PM (GMT-7)

Posted 12/22/2007 1:37 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Embers

Thanks for taking care of that..please keep posting about your life that is not a problem at all.
I was just concerned that the emails would confuse the other members on how to respond to you.
Posted 12/22/2007 6:52 PM (GMT 0)
Hi you guys,
This will probably be short for now. KInd of tired, sleepy, I don't know why. I just woke up that way. Maybe the weather.
Thank you Shy for letting us post like this, I know that sometimes we get a little lengthy. But it is so therapeudic for all of us. I think that we try to keep things up beat and that helps fight the depression. Again, thank you and join in at any time.
It is a dreary and damp day here today. Does'nt help with the aches and pains. I wish that the sun would come out for a while. Maybe that would wake me up.
I got married yesterday, a lot of excitement. I think maybe that is why I am tired.
At the risk of being boring and repeatative, I think that I will end here. Will post more later.
Luv and Hugs,
getting by.
Posted 12/22/2007 7:55 PM (GMT 0)
Shy, you're welcome. Thanks for letting us know all is well. I'm glad.

Hi Karen,

Yes, I think you've got a reason to be tired today. Not just the wedding but all the anticipation. Even good excitement can make us more tired than usual, especially if it's prolonged. But you will feel better soon I'm sure. Just find yourself a nice comfy blanket to stay warm and pamper yourself for awhile today. You deserve it.

I slept in today which is helpful. I hope my stomach finds it helpful anyway! I feel better at the moment. I think h has gone for errands with people here. I wish I could have gone, but they said they wanted to leave early and I can't do mornings right now.

It's grey here today too. Here's hoping we'll have some nice surprises to perk us up today. yeah

Hope everyone has a day filled with hope and peace.

Rest up now Mrs. And we'll talk to you another time. Love, Embers
Posted 12/23/2007 2:32 AM (GMT 0)
Hi there,
You are right Embers, I am tired today. I guess there was just too much excitement. I think that it all is catching up with me. Though I am really happy right now I am really tired.

We've just been through a few nice warmer days, though it has been damp and that makes me ache bad. Now they are talking 5-7 inches of snow in the next two days. But Christmas day is suppose to be nice(for now anyway). I always worry about traveling during the holidays. We have about an hours drive to son and dil house on Christmas day. There are a lot of hills and curves. But we have a four wheel drive so I feel more safe. John's son called me "mom" on the phone today. That was different. I am so glad that he is happy with our marraige.

I figured that you would like Kevin Daniel's work. He puts a lot of detail into his paintings. I like the colors that he uses. The light houses had a lot of color in them. I have to start painting again. I haven't worked on mine in a long time. I have so much unfinished work. I started a grizzly bear. He is standing up crossing over a log. It looks pretty cool. I did a wood burning of the same thing, that came out good. I think the painting will be even better, whenever I get it done.

Gillian mentioned how she misses talking to her neighbors in the winter time. I do too. In the summer I walk each dog around the block every day. I get to say hello to everybody that way. Maybe stop and talk a few minutes. I haven't been going at all lately. I think that I am afraid of slipping and falling down. A couple winters ago I was walking my shepard and hit some black ice and fell. When I did, I came down on my elbow. I think I was trying to spare my head. My elbow was cut, I didn't realize it until I got home. It got infected and I had a heck of a time with it. So now I guess that I am gunshy. If that is what you would call it. But I really need the exercise especially right now. I have been eating too much sweets and not getting any exercise. People keep bringing goodies over and I have no self dicipline when it comes to sweets this time of year. I am afraid that not only will I gain more weight but that it will affect my overall well being. Too much sugar makes me tired.
Embers, I just figured out why I am so tired. Too much sugar.
Well, on that note I guess I will end here. I actually figured it out.
I hope that you all are haveing a wonderful evening.
Hugs,
Karen
Posted 12/23/2007 7:42 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Karen,

I hope you will have a nice sunny day for your Christmas driving. I don't like drives in poor weather either or slippery roads. It's good you have a four wheeler though. THat helps. I was in a bad car accident in 2005 - our car was totalled and it's a miracle we are both still alive - anyway, ever since then I am pretty jumpy on the road - mostly when the husband is driving. I get on his case too much. He was driving when teh accident happened, so I don't know if that is why. But in any case, like most people, I prefer nice weather for driving too.

There is a big family get together here for Christmas. I don't want to go. For several reasons. H is upset with me for that. I wish he could just let me be. Counting the days, counting the days...!

Moving right along...lol

Karen, I was sorry to hear about your fall on teh black ice. I know you have what it takes to overcome the way that has held you back though, and when you feel ready, you will be right back out for your walks I'm sure! Just pray for angels to surround you and you'll have extra support! yeah
And of course your beautiful dog(s) will be there too, and they also know you can do this!

Hey, cool you figured it was the sugar that you are feeling tired. Yeah, it makes me tired too. I read that seomthing like only 1 tsp. of sugar will lower the immune system's function significantly for four hours after ingestion. I do okay staying away from it...unless other people have it around - so I understand your dilemma a little bit. I need to be pretty black and white with it because if I eat just a little, I often eat tooooo much. So unless I make rules re. limits, I have trouble refusing it too a lot of the time. Oh well. Just gotta keep counterbalancing it with some veggies I guess. lol. I did manage to make a salad tonight so that's a start for me. When I get home I'll be in salad land again. The veggies here are poor quality, but back home quite good. I get excited just thinking about it. I really loooove how veggies taste but more than that I love how much better they make me feel when I eat them!!

Your bear wood burning sounds awesome. Man, I would LOVE to see your art some day. By the way, I looked at Jeannie's wedding cakes too - I saw you did also - can you believe those creations? I have never seen any cakes so amazing. Man, she is quite amazing to do that with fibro...or even without it for that matter! they were so beautiful. Kudos for all you wonderful artists who bring out the beauty in life for others to enjoy! Do you plan on putting up a web-space soon for your art work? Is that why you got the digital camera?

I betcha Gill is just getting up as you and I are going to sleep. I think she's in Scotland? I'm not sure. Anyway, whenever you stop by next Gill, just want to wish you a peaceful and hopeful day today. yeah

Well Karen, I hope you feel more energetic soon. And as for me, I am sleepy, so time for bed.

love and hugs, Embers

Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/23/2007 12:53:24 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 12/23/2007 10:36 AM (GMT 0)
Hi you guys,

You are so right i'm just up, it's just after 10 in morning, sunday morning, it has been snowing during the night and it looks like icing on the paths, so it's no where near as bad as your snow over there where you are Karen.

Embers i will have to look up this artist sometime today, the boys have been sick since wed so it's been non stop. What are you doing for christmas? I hope you have a lovely time whatever you do, i know you just want to be home and you will be soon.

Karen you too have a great time and i hope your travels will be safe, give that wee grandson lots off love when you see him too!

Look forward to hearing from you both Gillian x
Posted 12/23/2007 11:07 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Gill,

Hey, I never got to sleep, so I am up even though it is 4:30 am my time. Too many unresolved emotions. I'll be fine - will just sleep in tomorrow. I don't mind as it helps the day go faster anyway.

After retreating to my room this evening, I needed some quiet time and then I remembered I had bought some pencil crayons. I like to color. I find it very therapeutic. I can't draw well, but somehow when I just let things flow, I can come up with some simple pics that inspire me. So I just spent an hour or so coloring and it was just what I needed. I find it's something about the connection with the pencil on paper and just seeing the colors brighten the page.

I think you sound like a nice person. I like how described the snow like icing on the paths. That is a pretty description. Sorry to hear the boys have been sick. I hope they are recovering alright. How old are your boys again?

There is not much to write about at 5 am. lol. But it was just nice to come here and see someone was online. It was nice to see your post and to take a moment to respond. I will likely fall asleep soon.

Hope your day is a good one, and that your boys are feeling better. Hopefully Mrs. Karen is sleeping well and did not have any sugar before bed. (wink, wink Karen)

ttfn, Embers
Posted 12/23/2007 4:41 PM (GMT 0)

Hey you guys,

Thought I would drop a few lines to let you know what is going on here.  It is really windy today but not too cold, though the wind makes it seem cold.  This is suppose to last for a couple of days.  I don't like the wind, it makes me nervous.  Especially when it is like this.  A lot of noises outside.  My greenhouse door keeps moving and the dog thinks it is someone out side.  Then she starts barking.

I got an email from my late husbands cousin in North Carolina.  She has gotten into photography.  She goes to Country music festivals and photos the artists.  Then she down loads them and burns CD's.  She is going to teach me some things with that and with computer.  Her son's are teaching her right now and then she will pass on that information to me.  I told her that John and I got married.  She was so happy for us.  I was a little worried because I was married to their cousin before he died.  In fact the day he died was her birthday.  Isn't that ironic.  I feel a little better today.  I tried to stay away from the sugar last night, so I believe that was the culprit.  I will have to be more careful with that.  The holidays will be over soon so hopefully all the sweets will disappear.

Today is John's birthday.  He wouldn't let me get him anything.  I couldn't even sneak away to get any thing for him no matter how hard I tried.  I want to make him a cake.  He likes pistachio pudding cake.  (more sweets) But he would probably like an apple pie better.  I will ask him.  Both sound good. 

I suppose I should close here, got a few things to get started on.

Gillian, how old are your boys.  I hope all is well with them.  I bet you have your hands full.  Are you from Scottland like Embers said you might be?  I guess your time would be a lot different than ours.  I have seen pictures of the scottish hills, it is beautiful there.  I always picture the men playing the bagpipes.  Whenever I listen to scottish music, it send chills up my spine.  I collect a little celtic music,  I just love the way it makes me feel.

Let me know.

hugs,

Karen yeah

Posted 12/23/2007 8:33 PM (GMT 0)
Hi girls,

My son Liam is 5 and the other Sean is 2 he will be 3 in Feb, they are both terrors, lol. Liam is alot better and i took him to the movies today it was good The Bee Movie, Sean is not so good i left him with my mum, hopefully he will be better tomorrow.

I live in Bonnie Scotland right in between Glasgow and Edinburgh, it's a small village and my dad is the local butcher, lol, so he's very busy at the moment getting all his orders ready for tomorrow, christmas eve, they all get delivered then.

I actually have been feeling good this past week, i think it's all the biz of the shops and running around after the boys, i like it that way, no time to dwell on things!!

We are going into Glasgow tomorrow to get the atmosphere and see the christmas lights, myself, my hubby, his NEW PARTNER Tom, and the boys, huh what a life i have now! He ho! what can i say life's one big mystery, but we try our best.

I am thinking whether or not you both know my situation???

I'll stop here and you can let me know, Gillian x
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