Jack,
I've been where you are, for about
10 years after I was diagnosed, and I have the neuropathy and the glasses to prove it... I drank alcohol while on meds that weren't supposed to be mixed with it, binged on favorite carbs and basically acted like the spoiled brat that I was. Yes, I was scared, too. Yes, I was also angry. It takes some time to come to grips with this beast but once I did so, I found I had to do it all over again several more times.
It wasn't so much the commercials in my face because I am a busy working lady who makes wedding cakes and seldom have time for TV. For me it was the constant counting, figuring, adding and adjusting while I was trying to make sense of my ADA diet and my meds.
It wasn't until I plain ran out of money, was without insurance and couldn't afford my Avandia and Lantus that I made a liberating discovery. My friends here helped me start on my "nothing white but cauliflower" food plan and my burden became MUCH lighter! No figuring, no confusion and no crazy! I eat lean meats, fish, eggs and cheeses, lots of fresh and frozen veggies, nuts and olives, some delicious fruits and occasionally 1/2 cup of excellent ice cream. I even eat some chocolate most every day, (from Aldi's, the most luscious and inexpensive chocolate I've found for my bakery!) and I've accepted my disease, dropped my numbers, dropped about
40 lbs. and got rid of my expensive meds and insulin. I now take $4 a month metformin, swim and live better than I did before I was diagnosed.
As far as the "diabetes epidemic" is concerned, everything from childhood vaccines to the use of corn syrup sweeteners in our diet has been brought up as suspect. Whatever the reason, I'm living and living well with diabetes and use this forum to help me stay on the straight and narrow. Yup, the reward for being "good" is that you just get to be "good" some more, but the time that being good gives me is time with my darling grandchildren who were not around when I started this fight. I have to take care of me because if I don't, who will? And I don't want to be a burden to my children because I didn't do the best I could. So... I just KOKO.... Keep on Keepin' on... and take it one meal or snack at a time. I wanted to tell you this so you will see that it does become easier over time.
Take care.