Derek....
I understand how you're feeling..... Two years ago, I was in great health at the ripe old age of 35. Then in Jan 04, I was dx with Viral Cardiomyopathy and started swallowing a whole handful of pills twice a day. I NEVER had trouble with anything but some elevated BP. Now, after every doctor in the world has tinkered with me......I have High Triglycerides, High Cholesterol, and NOW "borderline" diabetes. The hardest of all of these to accept is DIABETES !!!! I don't know why, it's just a mental thing. I have had my bottle of Fortamet sitting on my counter for almost 3 months now and I can't take it........ I don't know the answers for either of us, just know that you're not alone.