Hi i found this forum whilst searching for diabetes chat rooms.
I'm 27 now but was diagnosed as a type 1 diabetic when i was 12 years old. I have spent a long time trying my best to ignore my condition but now things seem to be coming to a head.
I'm finding my diabetes almost impossible to control, although i think that the stress in my life really isn't helping but recently i've gotten really worried about how the years of neglect might be damaging me.
To be honest i'm kinda freaking out about it but just don't know what to do, it's like i've gotten into a cycle of mismanagement but have no idea what to do to start putting it right.
I've started testing my blood glucose which up until recently i would easily go a year without doing once. I also now have developed a fear of injecting as my hypo symptoms are not reliable like they used to be. I know this is my own fault and i'm getting what i deserve for being so irresponsable with my treatment but i am at least now trying to make an effort.
My sugars are all over the place varying from being scarily high like in the 30's when i wake up, to being really low, for example 2.5 this morning (my target range is 4-8). When i wake up with low sugars i often don't inject until the evening because i'm scared of crashing, but this leads to very high sugars which i know are harming me.
I basically need a complete overhaul, my insulin was changed after my previous stuff was discontinued, i'm now on Humalog Mix 25. At the end of last year i did request an appointment with my consultant but all he would offer me was a new insulin that you inject 4 times a day. I tried that system when i was a teenager and it led to nasty lumping that still hasn't gone away, also i desperately don't want to inject more times a day as i've gotten into an awful habit of not injecting as it is. He basically refused to offer me any other help and i walked away feeling like i'm being left to sort this out by myself, but i don't know how to.
Sorry for the long intro, but hopefully i'll get back on track if i can really focus on it.