Thank you Jeannie, for your words of support.
This morning at work, I did what you suggested, even though you hadn't posted yet.
I spoke to the nurse and asked why my meds are so low (in repsonse to your question) She said because I am a new diabetic, the Dr. is still evaluating my condition and will adjust the meds if needed, probably in a month or so. But she said not to worry about the low strength at this time.
Also, I queried about why I am not checking my sugar levels during the day. Now this procedure may not be the same as in the USA but this is how it goes in Canada...I am not a "certified" diabetic (although at times I seem certifiable LOL) . I have to go to a Diabetic Clinic at the hospital, take a 4-5 hour clinic and there they have a dietician to help with the diet and nurses that show newbies on how to check the sugar levels and how often. I would imagine there is more to it, but thats all about I remember her saying. My appointment with the clinic was 1st scheduled for the middle of March as there is a long wait list to get in. My Dr was right when he said diabetes is at an epidemic rate! And he blew a gasket when he found out how long I'd have to wait, so he got his office to get me in at a hospital in another city which is only about 1/2 hr away. I now have an appointment for the 2nd week in Jan.
His nurse also said that yes, if I "behave" myself and look after my body, meds can be discontinued but I will always have to check sugar levels everyday for ever and ever. I;m determined that I will lose those extra 30 lbs and will stop meds. But on the other hand, I was hoping for better news about the daily testing. In my own little "perfect" world, I imagine myself as completely healed of this disease after I lose weight and diabetes would just be an ugly memory. But I guess that will not happen. :(
I'm going to say something that has been in my mind since last week. Now I know its not going to be something you would like to hear a diabetic say, but hey, I've only been a diabetic for a week, and things just don't seem real yet, and I am sad & mad at the same time!. Anyway, here goes...I keep thinking this disease is hopeless.... it will never go away, will be with me every single day of my life and as I age, it will get worse...at least thats what I read on one site on the net. I can't imagine 20 or so years down the road, still having this crappy disease, watching, watching, always watching what I eat and I am d*** mad! I want a chocolate bar! I want to eat and have fun at Christmas time, have few drinks, and hell, even get drunk so I can forget for a couple hours that I am diabetic!
Man, I hate the way I sound, wallowing in such self pity! That isn't like me. Hopefully in time, I can adjust to this, but darn it, right now, mentally, I feel like crap